Decided to go out and support friends at an event. To which lead me to have a few drinks( I never drink) and celibate another persons success, as I was invited to do so. Problem here was the drinking, which lead to impulsive behavior, and old habits, not good.
Which made me think, if I didn't go out with them and declined the invite, and continued to be reclusive, this all could have been avoided. The people I visited are genuinely good people, positive I think, but are they really? Is it right to blame them for what provoked my stupid behavior afterwards when I left?
I said a prayer today, and I never pray. It was short, but I could feel some response afterwards, "The Lord is merciful, may he wash my sins". I said this as I looked out my front door and watched the rain come down. Immediately I felt this cleanse wash over me. My guilt had been lifted and I returned to the person I was the day before. I want to be free from this recurring patterns. I don't want to say what I did, but if you reply appropriately, maybe I will.
>>14628 fuwa?
>>14614 OP now i am curious, what did you do?
>Is it right to blame them for what provoked my stupid behavior afterwards when I left?
No, i don't think it's right, i mean to make mistakes is human, but to not take responsibility for your mistakes is nigger-like, no offense but asking god for forgiveness and moving on without learning anything seems really like you are just looking for a quick excuse to not change yourself in better.
It's hard to give more advices without knowing what you did and what these old habits and impulsive behaviors are.
>Is it right to blame them for what provoked my stupid behavior afterwards when I left?
Depends on what they did. Depends on what you did. But >>14629 probably more.
Which made me think, if I didn't go out with them and declined the invite, and continued to be reclusive, this all could have been avoided. The people I visited are genuinely good people, positive I think, but are they really? Is it right to blame them for what provoked my stupid behavior afterwards when I left?
I said a prayer today, and I never pray. It was short, but I could feel some response afterwards, "The Lord is merciful, may he wash my sins". I said this as I looked out my front door and watched the rain come down. Immediately I felt this cleanse wash over me. My guilt had been lifted and I returned to the person I was the day before. I want to be free from this recurring patterns. I don't want to say what I did, but if you reply appropriately, maybe I will.