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Nanonymous No.14848 [D][U][F][S][L][A][C] >>14853 >>14854 >>14857 >>14858 >>14860 >>14939 >>15094
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What is your biggest regret in life nanons? Mine is acting like there is no tomorrow and getting myself doxed years ago. I knew I wasn't secure or safe but I thought I was going to off myself so It wouldn't matter. Now I am a living meme.

Everyone I meet in life gives me anxiety knowing that one google search away there are hundreds of pages about me.

Nanonymous No.14850 [D] >>14851 >>14853 >>14856 >>14860 >>15236
Not telling a girl I loved her when I had the chance.

Nanonymous No.14851 [D] >>14853
Listening to bad advice from the wrong people

Not beating up certain people

Working too much where I should pursue some pleasure in life

>>14850
Trust me, if you live in any western society it doesn't matter

Nanonymous No.14853 [D] >>14856 >>14859 >>14867
>>14848
>doxxed
Get a new name and look. Read privacy books like "How to be Invisible" since it covers more than I could here. I think there are forms you can submit to google and other sites to request deletion. You should also calm down and smell the ashes.

>>14850
You still have a chance for good things Nanon-senpai.

>>14851
>Not beating up certain people
Let the niggers do that.

>I should pursue some pleasure in life
Enough to want to live but not enough to lose stability. Working and improving yourself gives life purpose. Pleasure seekers are depressed for a reason.

>in any western society it doesn't matter
Back in the day when women were most pure and when your community and primary schooling was essentially a matchmaking service.
In modern times if you had the chance when you were young then blew it, then it does matter. Most girls are now broken, used, and brainwashed goods unless you look into obscure religious communities. It's not hopeless though. There are women like you out there but you need to advertise or make first contact.

Nanonymous No.14854 [D]
>>14848
It's ok hapase, everyone makes mistakes

Nanonymous No.14856 [D]
>>14853
>Let the niggers do that.
Sometimes being too good is not good for you and letting the rage out can change your brain positively. I really don't know if it's worth it trying to be civil.

>Pleasure seekers are depressed for a reason.
Not getting any pleasure at all is also detrimental for your mental well-being. You finally reach a point where nothing gives you pleasure anyway.

>In modern times if you had the chance when you were young then blew it, then it does matter.
I understand your point of view and I have been there. I know the feeling of desiring to catch the opportunity instead of going through damaged goods later, but still... western femoids are years ahead even at an early age, they know every trick and take advantage of it.

So, did he really have a chance or was it an illusion?

To answer >>14850 in a better way, in the grand scheme of things it's not worth it torturing yourself with such a thought. Telling a girl you love her will probably result in her making fun of you or even labeling you as a weirdo or a stalker. Obviously we are missing the specific details, but still I believe that if a woman wants it, you will definitely know it instead of wondering if you should have persisted more.

Nanonymous No.14857 [D] >>14858
>>14848
>What is your biggest regret in life nanons?
Posting in datamining threads.

>Now I am a living meme.
>Everyone I meet in life gives me anxiety knowing that one google search away there are hundreds of pages about me.
Reveal to us who you are.

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>>14857
It's Hapase you dumb fuck. Who else would it be?
>>14848
HAIL HAPASE, QUEEN OF NANOCHAN.

my biggest regret is that I started with nietzsche Nanonymous No.14859 [D][U][F]
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>Everyone I meet in life gives me anxiety knowing that one google search away there are hundreds of pages about me.
There are always people like me who don't do google searches. I don't give a fuck.
And as >>14853 said, you can always move. Reminder that jewgle is very responsive and cooperating when it comes to right to forget or whatever its name is.

I've too many regrets for one post Nanonymous No.14860 [D][U][F] >>14861 >>14862 >>14867 >>14876 >>14971 >>15041
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>>14848
>regret
My biggest regret is wasting my adolescence isolating myself into MMORPGs and then becoming an hikki for almost 8 years now, being hikki fucks you up on levels non-hikkis does not even understand, it's fucked up.
>dox
It sucks man, is the dox that bad? Are you ashamed of things you've said or of things you've done? Anyway i suggest stop giving a fuck about it cause it's not something you can do anything about it...embrace it, tell it directly to people youu meet and watch their reaction, the one who stays are the one that cares. Of course without having an idea of the gravity of the dox this advice may sound stupid.
>>14850
When i was in my teens i had 2 different chances with 2 different cute and pure girls to declare my love to them and i didn't, 15 years after i am still a virgin. It physically hurts to think about this, sometime i think that was the moment my life turned to the worst, like a sort of cosmic crossroad. The pain is real nanon, i can understand it, we can just cope.

Nanonymous No.14861 [D] >>14863
>>14860
>an hikki for almost 8 years now, being hikki fucks you up on levels non-hikkis does not even understand
How does it fuck you up? I haven't left my house for five years, so I think, I should be able to understand.

Nanonymous No.14862 [D]
>>14860
Take yourself and your hapa sister outside, weak faggot.

Nanonymous No.14863 [D] >>14870 >>15041
>>14861
>How does it fuck you up?
The most fucked up thing about it(at least that i noticed in my hikki experience) is that after enough time you slowly stop being a human being and you become some kind of ghost that infests an empty house(it's a metafor ofc).
All the people that knew me before(they were not many to begin with) literally forgot about my existance and i don't even blame them for it, i'm pretty sure the only persons that are aware that i exist are my boomer parents, when they will die i'll be literally the invisible man, i feel like this, changed me deeply psychologically, to the point that i can't empathize or properly understand normal people.
As a consequence of the isolation i got left behind by everybody else, during the time that i was in my room people made friends, made love, made experiences, there is a huge empty void of almost 8 years(actually even more since even before i went full hikki i was isolated) where i did none of this, so compared to somebody of my age i lack a big part of development in the social areas, or to be more exact i developed into something different, something asocial that can be self-sufficient, but also unable to live in a social environment.
To recap, the most fucked up thing about being a hikki for a long period of time is that you become a non-human incompatible with society and therefore locked in your situation with no way of going back to normality.
If you're not to this stage abort mission now.

Nanonymous No.14864 [D] >>14866
> getting myself doxed years ago
Now imagine living a media-addicted attentionwhore normie life and thoroughly doxing yourself every fucking hour.

Nanonymous No.14866 [D]
>>14864
This made me laugh. It's true, and worse than just sharing they embellish and play it up for maximum possible engagement. Roasties never had a chance.

Nanonymous No.14867 [D][U][F] >>14871 >>15036
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>>14853
>Get a new name and look. Read privacy books like "How to be Invisible"

I no longer show my face online anywhere apart from posting a picture on facebook once a year. I do that in hopes that people googling me will come across my facebook and ignore the rest.

>>14860
>My biggest regret is wasting my adolescence isolating myself into MMORPGs and then becoming an hikki for almost 8 years now

I don't regret doing that. Society sucks and playing MMO'S was the most fun part of my life.

>It sucks man, is the dox that bad?

It's mainly me ranting about women and blacks. About 500 pages of it in total. I am almost a minor e-celeb


Nanonymous No.14870 [D] >>15036
>>14863
>during the time that i was in my room people made friends, made love, made experiences, there is a huge empty void of almost 8 years
Have you thought that maybe you couldn't connect with them anyway and maybe living in a different society your life would have been different as well?

Nanonymous No.14871 [D] >>14872
>>14867
At least there's a positive, that some people will see you in a positive way knowing your views.

Nanonymous No.14872 [D][U][F] >>14874
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>>14871
>At least there's a positive, that some people will see you in a positive way knowing your views.

Oh I am not ashamed about my views. It's just that they can get me fired from any job because of them and I can be treated poorly in the court of law when my past is brought up.
For example if a brown person attacked me and forced me to kill him my "racism" would be used against me in court.

Nanonymous No.14874 [D] >>14879
>>14872
Where would I be able to procure this 500 page document?

Nanonymous No.14876 [D][U][F] >>14879
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>>14860
Well, same here. I've wasted my life, potential and possibilities for nothing. Lack of socialization and love/friends/other things is not my main regret, it's just a litle irritation in comparison of fear that I won't be able to sustain myself and make money for living when I need to.

Nanonymous No.14878 [D] >>14880
An incel rebellion would solve most of our problems.

Nanonymous No.14879 [D][U][F] >>14881 >>15241
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>>14874
>Where would I be able to procure this 500 page document?

Sadly you will never know. All it takes to find it is my full name. At least I was smart enough for them to not find my precise location.

>>14876
>Well, same here. I've wasted my life, potential and possibilities for nothing. Lack of socialization and love/friends/other things is not my main regret, it's just a litle irritation in comparison of fear that I won't be able to sustain myself and make money for living when I need to.

I think people overhype normalfag life. You missed out on dating a few sluts, half of which would cheat on you and getting shitfaced in clubs. Big whoop. You could be pursuing a career but in the end you will just be a better paid wage slave. Bottom line is life sucks. It has to suck for people to be forced to do shitty jobs so they can serve the greed of a small minority of wealthy men. If people had it too good no work would ever get done. We would all just be eating tropical fruits on a beach and getting blowjobs from robot waifus.

Nanonymous No.14880 [D]
>>14878
>An incel rebellion would solve most of our problems.

Inceldom was created by the people who created feminism. They used women to fuck men over. If you wanted to end it women would have to assume traditional roles and no longer compete with men in work force. Being a stay at home wife would also end female hypergamy because women would depend on men.

Nanonymous No.14881 [D]
>>14879
You aren't obliged to get shitfaced or fuck siphilitic whores. What a perfect example of binary thinking and exaggeration.

Nanonymous No.14883 [D][U][F]
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I REGRET NOTHING

t.boomer

Nanonymous No.14885 [D] >>14918
A dox only seems detrimental if it reaches lolcow status. Otherwise, it's just some random person and no one cares.

Nanonymous No.14918 [D][U][F] >>14922
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>>14885
I had at least a few dozen people go after me for "racism" "sexism" and "antisemitism". Even after laying low my nicknames kept being brought up and some people even pretended to be me.

I think by now most have forgotten about me and moved on to other people.

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I should have stopped supporting animal cruelty as soon I gained independence from my retarded parents that used to control what I ate.

Nanonymous No.14922 [D] >>14971
>>14921
Never expected to find another vegan on here. It's weird how few vegans there are on the /pol despite how that Hitler was a vegerien.
>>14918
What?

Nanonymous No.14928 [D] >>14929 >>15241 >>15454
I regret not having sex with my best friend during senior year of high school. She was such a stacy and I was such a chad but for some reason I loved her for who she was and not how she looked. Stupid. We were always together and our friends joked that we must be fucking like rabbits but we never did. We never even kissed. One night we got way too drunk at an especially crazy party and passed out together in the same bed. This sort of thing had happened before, but this time when I woke she was trying to undress me so I stopped her. Everything fell apart after that. She started acting weird around me, avoiding me, and eventually disappeared altogether. If I had known that it was that important to her I would have done it. She was my best friend and every guy, including me, thought she was hot. I think she was too ashamed. Considering how I turned out, it seems so stupid now.

To help nanons understand.. we were raised in white suburban upper-class uber-christian america. We all got cars at 16, we all lived in new houses, we all had mexicans maids, and we all went church at least twice a week. Almost all of us went to college and left home still virgins.

Nanonymous No.14929 [D] >>14933 >>15454
>>14928
>rejected sex at a public party
>I would have done it
I think she had the wrong idea. Her self esteem could have been crushed by that rejection.

I know I'm not you, but If I was you and wanted to remain abstinent till marriage (promotes best pair bonding) then I would just explain to her up front that a long term bond was needed, not a fling. I think where you messed up was not explaining to her your boundaries or expectations i.e. "lets slow down" or "no offense. but no sex right now, we're at another's house".

I'm not entirely sure of your situation, but I sure wouldn't fuck at a party or waste sex on non-reproduction.

Nanonymous No.14933 [D] >>15454
>>14929
It was years ago and I don't remember what was said exactly but suffice to say some stupid awkward bullshit came out of my mouth because I was a teenage virgin and it had nothing to do with christianity or abstinence or anything wholesome. The truth is I was scared and it wasn't what I imagined my first time would be like. But I was also chad. I probably said something mean. Maybe I grabbed her too hard or had contempt on my face. Maybe you're right.. maybe in a moment I destroyed my best friends self esteem. Tbh I hadn't thought of it like that and it makes me regret it even more. She actually deserved to be my first. Unlike any other girl I've ever been with, we grew up together. We watched the same movies, listened to the same music, laughed at the same memes. We had history and inside jokes and we knew the same people. I regret not doing it with her because somehow I think that if I had then we might have had a boring normal life together.

Nanonymous No.14936 [D]
So you avoided drunken sex, probably without protection, I think in the long term it might have been better this way.

Now maybe you didn't handle the followup well, being a teen and having no experience with life. But maybe for the same reason (having no experience in life) the relationship, had there been one, wouldn't have gone too well.

I mean there's a difference between two friends and a couple, and it's not easy to understand things when you are too young.

Nanonymous No.14939 [D] >>14940 >>15236
>>14848
>What is your biggest regret in life nanons?
Perhaps not committing suicide as a preteen. I had suicidal thoughts for the first time when I was 11 or 12. I didn't act on them, and now I'm too bound up with this world to end my suffering.

Nanonymous No.14940 [D] >>14941
>>14939
Are you white nanon?

Nanonymous No.14941 [D] >>14942
>>14940
Of course. Nogs rarely commit suicide, and Asians commit suicide all too easily. Only whites struggle with it.

Nanonymous No.14942 [D][U][F] >>14943 >>14951
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>>14941
If you're white then you need to marry an asian woman. It's easy to do because it is a match made in heaven and asian girls are made for fucking white men. Maybe that will stop you from having suicidal thoughts.

Nanonymous No.14943 [D] >>14951
>>14942
OK. I'll give it a shot.

Nanonymous No.14945 [D]
posting on 4chan for 3 years.

Nanonymous No.14951 [D][U][F]
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>>14942
>>14943
Shut the fuck up. Not every thread should contain hapa derailment. Fuck off, sucka.

Nanonymous No.14971 [D][U][F] >>15036 >>15236
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Accidentally not taking an advanced placement test for math in 7th grade. This led me down an unbelievably long path of inferiority complexes and loneliness spawned from being in none of the classes my friends or people I had anything in common with were in. It would eventually cause me to overthink my lower academic achievement to the point of suicidal idealization, ironically causing me to miss a month of school.
The only good that came out of it was how I researched about why education is bad to make me not feel so bad about my lack of efforts put into it, only to soon realize how deeply corrupt public education is. In it of itself, the finding isn't important. What's important is how it led me to question a lot more and find truths at an age most are too busy being brainwashed to care for.
Yet, I pin point a lot of my past mental health issues to being in classes that are absolutely brain-dead easy, being too depressed about my situation to work myself out of holes I dug for myself, and then thinking there's something wrong with me for not pursuing challenges in education when I KNEW it is corrupt at its core.
I have a shit-load more regrets. But, I think that's the most substantial since a lot of my regrets followed this one. My life was pretty flawlessly awesome up until High School, when the overwhelming began.
>>14921
>>14922
Gahhh, I wish I could relate. I actually have made a few vegan posts on nanochan. But, alas, in the last few months, I've found too much substantial research against the healthiness AND environmental benefits of the vegan diet. I am a carnivore now. https://justmeat.co/ is a nice conglomerate of arguments for carnivorous diets in humans. Want to debate? Maybe I should make a thread for it. Honestly, I prefer a reasonable vegan over some fag that doesn't care what they're putting in their body or what environmental consequences are the result of their diet.
>>14860
Lots to sympathize with in this post. While have not gone full hikki, I knew someone personally who was in his early teens. How does that happen so young, you ask? Well, it doesn't I suppose. This person was more of a hikki in nature than in technicality. He was one of the best friends I ever had, if not my only best friend. He used the internet like no other zoomer I knew did. Through him, I learned where beauty truly lies in computers and the internet and this shaped me in ways I can't put into words well.
I miss him earnestly.
>2 different chances with 2 cute girls
Very unfortunate. In high school, I dated 1 pure weeb girl and am dating another currently. Can't say I regret much about it. She had better interest in vocaloid than me and introduced me to lots of obscure talents. Having a sub-100 pound biological cutie to watch tasteful torrented animu with; discussing it after each episosde is as amazing as it sounds. She is the only person I ever knew willing to "jump through the hoops" to use private methods of online communication with me. She even looked like Hatsune Miku with curly, non-blue hair. I will always love her. The only reason we wouldn't be dating now is because she had to move and can't handle long distance. Honestly, she boosted my confidence and general manliness a lot. I'm sorry nanon, I semi-anecdotally believe you missed out. Anyone who tells you girls aren't worth it haven't come across the ACTUALLY introverted and shy virgin with contrarian interests who you met on accident and not through some gay forced bullshit like online dating. Oh, it lasted for nearly half a decade, by the way. So don't by the "it's only fleeting" bullshit either. Good luck, and ask me anything.

Nanonymous No.15036 [D][U][F] >>15041 >>15042 >>15045 >>15060 >>15236
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>>14867
>I don't regret doing that. Society sucks and playing MMO'S was the most fun part of my life.
It was fun for me too, until it lasted, then i found myself alone and without much of a future, maybe i should go back playing mmorpgs and forget about the real world completely, the thought of it sounds actually really comfy, some good mmorpgs these days? I don't play them since years.
>About 500 pages of it in total.
You mean that as in a Kiwifarms thread with 500 pages?
>>14870
>Have you thought that maybe you couldn't connect with them anyway
Maybe, but i think that making social experiences and getting laid would have gave me more confidence and ultimately would have made a better person. There is always a voice in my head that says...things would have gone in a different way if only...i think that everybody has this voice since everybody has regrets, but when you are hikki and you have a lot of time to think and there is always silence in your room, this voice is particularly strong, i can't just ignore it by saying that things would have gone to shit regardless cause i know that that's a lie, i was in control of my life and i made shit choices that's the truth, the voice is right.("the voice" is a metaphor not an actual voice if it wasn't obvious, i'm not schizophrenic)
>maybe living in a different society your life would have been different as well?
I guess? What do you mean with different society? Do you mean like it was a century ago? Or something completely different?
>>14971
>This led me down an unbelievably long path of inferiority complexes and loneliness spawned from being in none of the classes my friends or people...
There are lot of similarities in your story to my years in highschool, like schoolmates i couldn't relate to and braindead classes, i also realized quickly(around middle school actually) that the current education system is literally brainwashing to create obedient slaves, at the time this discovery completely killed all my motivation to do well in school.
>I dated 1 pure weeb girl and am dating another currently...
Reading that made me feel envy i won't lie, it also made me feel like there is some hope if girls like that actually exists. Thanks for giving me some hope.
>She is the only person I ever knew willing to "jump through the hoops" to use private methods of online communication with me.
That is one of my biggest problems when i try to meet people online, everybody uses discord or some other botnet thing these days. Discussing methods to know people online without succumbing to the botnet would deserve its own thread.
>ask me anything.
Where and how to find cute shy weeb gf?

Nanonymous No.15039 [D]
Good imageboard must have some hikikomori in it.

Nanonymous No.15041 [D] >>15045 >>15241 >>15454
No biggest regrets, just a pile of small ones that keeps getting bigger and seems to stem from somewhere I can't remember. Like death by a thousand cuts. I'd say it's worse than having a big one, since that makes you feel like suddenly hitting some rock bottom and you can re-anchor. But like this you're just slowly sinking and only sometimes noticing it. Out of the small ones, the most annoying would have to be minimal social interaction during formative years.

>>14860
>being hikki fucks you up on levels non-hikkis does not even understand, it's fucked up
People who were in a shitty life position with too much free time for introspection can. I'm fairly sure it's what fucks you up for a long time, the meaning of life bullshit and what ifs over and over until you've stared into the void for too long. That and the easy high from Skinner boxes.
>>14863
>the most fucked up thing about being a hikki for a long period of time is that you become a non-human incompatible with society
It's possible to reintegrate. Just involves a lot of pretending to be normal. At least I hope it is, otherwise we're fucked.
>>15036
>things would have gone in a different way if only...i think that everybody has this voice
Not really. I remember things not looking good as far as me being a small kid. How would I know about my low int low charisma roll in life back then?
>i also realized quickly(around middle school actually) that the current education system is literally brainwashing
At least you did, I thought I was the shit for being able to drill encyclopedic knowledge into my head. It wasn't until recently that I realized I'm just a brainless niggermonkey, swimming in the ocean and not knowing how deep it is.
>That is one of my biggest problems when i try to meet people online, everybody uses discord or some other botnet thing these days.
So use it as well. Maintaining several identities is a part of good OpSec practices.
>Discussing methods to know people online without succumbing to the botnet would deserve its own thread.
You don't, at least initially. Slip it in over time. And split your activities. Phones are botnet anyway, get Discord on it and don't use it for anything remotely anonymous, your real life identity is connected to it anyway. Consider it your window into normalfag land, since this land won't magically come to you.

Nanonymous No.15042 [D] >>15093 >>15236 >>15241
>>15036
There's a difference between making social experiences and getting laid. Often connected but not necessarily.
By living in a different society I mean a different town or a different country.
Wackos will say something like marry a white woman and so on but this is a trap. If you are considered unattractive by the collective unconscious, there's nothing that can change that. You mention the braindead classes. It's difficult to connect to a world of lower IQ, so maybe you would do better in a world with a different mean IQ. To word it differently, the voice you are listening to is not necessarily the right thing to do, but maybe the pain of life.
You may want to research Chinese and Japanese philosophy to get a different understanding of reality and even start seeing the world as something you don't have to connect to.
My point of view is probably not welcome in this chan so I will refrain from expanding more.

Nanonymous No.15045 [D][U][F]
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>>1/2 the posts
>should've got with girl
The longer you think about it, the older you get. Don't regret and do. Just don't rush it too fast and settle for scum, or less than your worth. Be honest about your worth.

>>15036
>Of MMO escapism and niggercattle herding
>maybe i should go back playing mmorpgs and forget about the real world completely

Oh boy, let me tell you a story. My friend.

I never understood the mmo and online-gaming craze, especially the Pay to win/play. My friends and best friend got hooked on the Steam craze. We all still would be friends but I eventually drifted gradually because I couldn't afford games. So I was into Open Source games (realized it was only thing worth playing or trusting on my machine). Eventually stopped gaming altogether, just saved every dollar possible avoiding games and keeping that one old rig for general purpose. I followed the Linux rabbit hole, astonished and amused with the Trump presidency craze, blackmail/pedogate political scandals that lost my faith in all politics, and somehow ended up at the RacePill. We reunite months later and retain old habits but the friend is more open to subtle ideas of race and family rather than just gaming, not explicitly stated though. I even had a relative about sometime ago mention "pizzagate". The overton window is even shifting rapidly among normies if that makes you feel any better about the niggercattle situation.

You know what I hate about gamers, Hiki-anon? I know them personally as I previously mentioned. It's always a resistance. It feels like interacting with drug addicts. They never did "RISE UP". They grabbed a bottle of mountain dew, a bag of cheetohs, and "Sat Down". The whole gamergate thing, something which I barely knew of, made such a shitty stance and impression on me. These apolitical, center, and center-right gaming folk were really happy and naive to give leniency to leftists and let their civilization die if it meant they could game a little bit longer. The very civilization that makes it livable and habitable to play these shitty games to begin with, and the current civilization that poisons their games with Social Justice crap. Their preoccupation with fantasy is a major mental and physical illness, and a strategic blunder. I quite frankly never believe those fat asses would ever "Rise Up". The evil is taking control of the world, and by extension their videogames. So what do gamers do? Nothing. Absolutely nothing of value. At worst they fund the operations of the enemy by being bugman consumers.

I don't hate games or gamers, they are a major reason where I am today and what I know now. However, I can't empathize with their infantile obsession over a children's hobby. The saddest part is that the games (like Deus Ex or Metal Gear) themselves, made years ago, are playing more of a role in political advocacy against this leftist bullshit today, than these gaming fags do now. Apathetic addicts (gamer friends) and Greedy grifters (Sargonites), to hell with them.

Don't return to that bullshit. Anon.

>school
It's the niggercattle factory. Some people can be saved before they get thrown in or slow roasted. Those are your friends.

>do you mean with different society
I think we all would understand if we looked at the life of Adolf and his life. He had leisure time like we did but ended up getting shafted even with time on his side.

>>15041
>split your activities
Human behavior naturally increases metadata over time depending on how unique you are, leaving multiple identities to be cross-contaminated.

The take away from this thread is that you need experience life rather than waste time theorizing about or trying to avoid it.

Nanonymous No.15060 [D][U][F] >>15236 >>15454
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>>15036
>i think that everybody has this voice since everybody...
I'm no hikki. But, the voice is indeed much stronger once you've detached yourself from investing the lot of your time in corrupt modernity. Being able to think deeply is a curse in disguise.
>the voice is right
So much grief replaying before me, reading this. It's tough.
>There are lot of similarities...
I'm jealous of your early recognition of the corruption. Things might not have been so bad for me if I'd understood that modern public education is supposed to so heavily stifle people like me by design. Had I understood that I was warring with a corrupt system and not any sort of lack in personal talents, I might have never gotten interviewed in an emergency room for my suicide attempts.
>Reading that made me feel envy...
You're welcome. I'm glad you got some hope out of it. People are more inclined to believe something is impossible rather than there being a very small chance of it. Sometimes, it seems my gf stories are too good to be true to some. I think part of that may be do to people assuming I only tell the stories to make them feel envious. Really, I just want to help out and give hope.
>Where and how to find cute shy weeb gf?
I don't have an easy answer, sadly. We met early in middle school through sitting at a lunch table full of le epic gamers. We became friends and soon realized how unusually similar we were to each other. We mostly initially bonded over the notion that we were basically the only non-normalfags in the entire school who were athletic.
My guess in that most pure and modest cuties, while maybe not athletic, value apparent physical health. Be sure not to use your/her persona as a crutch and take care of yourself somewhat.
Another suggestion would be to avoid girls who use their weeb-iness as an identity. The thing about my weeb gf is that she didn't try to do "hehe, I watch animu so I'm gonna put reference pins all over my backpack and pretend I have obscure interests for attention!1!!1". Truly pure introverted girls with wholesome interests and passions aren't attention whores about it. From the outside, the should look fairly modest. It's a rule of thumb to pay more attention to modestly dressed girls in general, really. I came across lots of weeb girls in high school who had no interesting qualities about them on their own. They had to identify with attention-whore being weebs in order to not feel like a husk. Not only were they totally lacking in personal redeeming qualities, they also had absolute shit taste in animu/mango too. So, there was essentially nothing worthwhile about them.
>That is one of my biggest problems...
Very true. What supremely pisses me off most is that the non-botnet alternatives 99.9% of the time have no drawbacks as far as convenience beyond less popularity. It's not like, say, communication over cell phone where you're hard pressed to find any non-botnet alternative nearly as convenient. No, Riot.im is just superior to Dicksword in every conceivable way. I feel like normalfags are just people who got exposed to enough radiation to turn off parts of their brain, sometimes.
It especially royally sucks since I'll probably never form connections with people like you on the web. It's so hard to find anyone I have anything in common with on the internet these days. A huge point to topic-specific forums was being able to connect with people who can have deep conversations with you on a subject that would be hard to bring up with someone in real life due to obscurity, controversy, technicality, etc. Now, everything is overgeneralized to shit by people who don't like talking about anything that isn't vapid, self-consumed drivel unless they have to. With the parasite of social media, deep discussion is shunned and excessive abbreviation is praised.
TL;DR, things might have turned out well if Apple never existed or Steve Jobs died of veganism sooner than 2007.

Nanonymous No.15093 [D]
>>15042
Nah anon you've piqued my interest elaborate

Nanonymous No.15094 [D] >>15095 >>15227
>>14848
I racemixed with an asian girl.
I married her.
We had two kids.
Both of them hate us.
They're degenerate mutt trash.
This was before /pol/. Now i'm stuck. At least I can warn others of my fuckups though.

Nanonymous No.15095 [D]
>>15094
You are no better than the white women who fuck niggers. If you were serious about being sorry you would have corrected your mistakes. You know what I mean, right? You would get rid of mistakes.
But you are too much of a coward to do that. You fucked up but you have no conviction to fix your mistakes.

Nanonymous No.15222 [D][U][F] >>15223 >>15224 >>15236 >>15245
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Fuck, where do I even start? My entire life is one big series of poor decisions and regrets.

The most recent one is overdoing acid for an entire year and fucking up my heart as a result. After years of unhealthy lifestyle I finally got fit and running became my favorite activity. But as of early mid september when I had a soul crushing trip, I can't even run a mile without feeling like having a heart attack.

To make things worse, and something that brings me to another one of my regrets, I have no medical insurance so what I have to do now is to get a job to get insurance to be able to visit a doctor.

Nanonymous No.15223 [D] >>15247
>>15222
I understand a bit about medicine (not a doctor, though). Can you describe your symptoms? Might be able to help.

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>>15222
wasted digits

Nanonymous No.15227 [D]
>>15094
It's OK Darb, you still make good content.

Nanonymous No.15228 [D]
I let my ex get an abortion. I sometimes think about what the kid would be like. It would have looked angelic.

Nanonymous No.15231 [D] >>15233
I clicked on this thread.

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>>15231
>this thread
I know. It breaks your heart doesnit? ... Take a salt tablet.

Nanonymous No.15236 [D]
I can relate to almost everyone here, I'm glad for you guys sharing your stories, it's good to know that I'm not lonely. Feels like the more lonely the more close we are.

>>14850
The worst part is when you know that she likes you too. All I could do was autistic cringe shit around her, she probably lost the interest on me.

>>14939
I feel you nanon, the first time I tried suicide I was 5, it was pathetic but I had the intention to die.

>>14971
>how deeply corrupt public education is
This was the major reason that made me stop going to school, now it's extremely hard for me to get into an university. This might be my biggest regret.

>I learned where beauty truly lies in computers and the internet and this shaped me in ways I can't put into words well
I would like to know more about this if possible.

>...who you met on accident...
Still waiting my turn.

>>15036
>the voice is right
This voice scream loudly at me to a point that I can't do anything, I do have things to do but this voice steals my focus and ruins everything. It's hard to not get results from effort. I want to give you an advice (and others suffering from "the voice"), your greatest enemy resides inside of you. You need to live in the present to make a better future, the voice will always talk about the past, the voice might tell you the truth, but it's not right, it wants to drag you down. It's bounded to us (humans) to be like that.

>There are lot of similarities in your story to my years in highschool
Me too. The thing I most heard in school was "lol you so dumb", being another reason to make me stop going to school. I let myself be dominated by their judgement, but this judgement was just because we couldn't relate to each other. I still insecure about my intelligence though.

>Discussing methods to know people online without succumbing to the botnet would deserve its own thread
It would be cool, but even in internet I can't make friends. I really want to die.

>>15042
>My point of view is probably not welcome in this chan so I will refrain from expanding more
There's nothing to fear, we want to hear you.

>>15060
>I might have never gotten interviewed in an emergency room for my suicide attempts
I tried suicide a few times but I never have been in this situation, how it was? Sorry if it's ask too much.

>>15222
Damn nanon, I hope everything goes well for you.



I'm mostly a lurker, but this thread helped me today, I had to post something. Thanks again for sharing your stories.

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>>14879
>I think people overhype normalfag life
mia
>missed out on dating a few sluts
on the dating part
>who would cheat
we all are
>getting shitfaced in clubs
have you been in club
most are gay af
>better paid wage slave
picrel
>if people had it too good no work would ever get done
no bad work
>>14928
>chad getting his relship ruined by fuck
I learned to have sex before anything else it took me three years
vice versa sucks so much I hate adultetry
>I also realized quickly(around middle school actually) that the current education system is literally brainwashing to create obedient slaves, at the time this discovery completely killed all my motivation to do well in school
I never liked school, but it was about that time I realized that I can support me self with nonreactionary arguments.
it's the moment when you discover that all this muh babylon where words mean something else than they meant is happening because words never meant shit to start with
your life was just a fucking lie until that day
>now create yours
I say
elevate
>>15041
>swimming in the ocean and not knowing how deep it is
I'm sure I can smash few anglers without even looking at their ugly faces. After all they all swim like I want them to, like cheap blackouts.

>>15042
>not welcome in this chan
it is, welcome to my dao where words start to matter

Nanonymous No.15245 [D] >>15247
>>15222
>no health insurance
Go to your local medicaid office and apply. Drain it before Dems(Commies) give it to criminals--illegal aliens.

Nanonymous No.15247 [D] >>15425
>>15223
Sorry for late response, but in case you come back..

Like I said, it started after a sour trip when I almost got lost outside during sunset, so I had to run like hell to reach the nearest road in time. Never in my life have I ran so fast for so long due to extreme time dilatation and looping which made me feel like I'm staying in place. I'm not sure whether the cause of my issues was just overexertion, lsd laced with something cardiotoxic or a combination of both. But by the time I reached the road, I got this burning sensation in my chest combined with a pressure and a feeling of my heart giving up.

For the next few days I felt a constant slight pressure around the heart. After some 5 days it got better. Doing stuff like pushups, pullups, mowing a lawn, even 30 secs of jumping a rope didn't bother me.

So week later I go for a run, and after half a mile I get this slight angina again. I walk until it stops, then run some more. I again felt this pressure in my chest until the next day.

Now I'm ashamed of being this stupid...but here's what I did next; I figured I'm getting better and it's just a reversible heart damage common among marathon runners (still hope so)so a week later I took some lsd again.
Feeling great until I decided to try running. Less than half a mile after, terrible chest pressure like from the last trip started again.

Calmed down when I got home, but the part that worries me is that unlike the last time, I'm not getting any better. This was last friday and I still feel this pressure around my heart 50% of the time. And it gets worse during physical activity which stops me from doing anything harder than walking. For example, I did a couple of pullups yesterday for the heck of it and felt increased chest pressure for the next hour.

It mostly goes away when I sleep.

My pulse is normal, around 60 at rest.
Systolic heart pressure around 110-120 but diastolic is low, usually not above 65, today measured 55 and 65 few hours later.

Heart feels like it's pumping harder than normal, I can feel my pulse all the time.

And since yesterday, I feel like my armpit artery is pulsating but not all the time.

>>15245
It doesn't work like that in my stupid socialite country. There's deadline of 30 days after quitting a job to apply for basic insurance and if you don't, the only way is getting a job or paying astronomical fees. There's also welfare, but you can go fuck yourself if your skin isn't brown.

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>>15247
Maybe your blood pressure spiked and tore something.

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>>14928
>Everything fell apart after that. She started acting weird around me, avoiding me, and eventually disappeared altogether. If I had known that it was that important to her I would have done it.
What if all that was needed was the kiss?
>>14929
>Her self esteem could have been crushed by that rejection.
She was stacy. And he was chad. And they were close to each other. How's that even possible?
>>14933
That's sad, except the boring life together part.
>>15041
>Out of the small ones, the most annoying would have to be minimal social interaction during formative years.
Yeah, I know that one. Since I started middle school I started to become isolated, I rather read in my room instead of playing outside with other kids or chasing after girls; even at that age I already considered other kids dumb and the few times I joined others, I just didn't get their actions, it's like they were different specie. Now I regret it, but I also know it wouldn't be any different. It sucks.
Only girl I remember from that time is one with heterochromia, she had very nice name, Sandra, and for some time we were walking from school together, we had the same route. I don't really remember what we talked about or anything, but she was the first one I had sexual interest in, probably because she was 2 years older, I don't know, but I remember she was my first concrete subject I dreamed of while jerking off. Now I wonder whether she would recognize me.
>>15060
>Another suggestion would be to avoid girls who use their weeb-iness as an identity.
I can't argue with that, like, what's the purpose? Meeting new people? I have enough of all the girls eyeing me whenever I open 100 years old book. Worst about it is that I see it. As if little kids saying whenever I go around them "This mister looks cool!" wasn't enough. It's not even something I do on purpose, especially in trains et cetera. Only place I wave with them is in secret before the only ones, Evas and such.
I don't judge anybody solely by that anymore, but I consider it a warning sign. All you ever needed and you'll ever need is to look, that should be enough.
>Riot.im is just superior to Dicksword in every conceivable way. I feel like normalfags are just people who got exposed to enough radiation to turn off parts of their brain, sometimes.
Yes. The privacy part is just cherry on the top.

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Shout at the succulent clouds
who in reply wring themselves out on the house
Doubt that your lungs carry cries
sufficient to pry weeping eyes out of these skies
I remember why
Waiting around
day in day out
Swallow the keys
When we're released
Waiting around
which wasted hours are our ire?