I jerk off 8-12 times a day.Sooner or later the flood of my CUM penetrates my sweat pants leaving a delicious smelling stain.
To be frank, I do not know how to cope. Every day I feel like killing myself. I am dirt poor and winter is coming. Again I shall suffer the coldness of the winter, alone, broke and forgotten.
Ive learned to not give a fuck. Nothing matters. No one can stop the universes unstoppable march towards the highest state of entropy so why bother. There is no happiness waiting at the end of this bullshit, it will never get better so why try or feel bad about it.
I try to look at life as a gift even though it clearly is not. I might end it now or just try to make the most out of it while i can. So far im warm and fed so thats something
Take the optimistic-nihilism pill nanon
Sometimes I will enjoy a hot cup of premium coco.I don't like drinking as all good alcohol is expensive and a big guy like me struggles to get drunk easily.At my weight two liters of wine is barely enough.
Right now I am lighting my room with candles.Some wires were faulty and it blew out my safety.The lights are out but all my electrical outlets are working so my PC has the juice.There is something surreal about only partially losing electricity.
>>17230 I just suffer endlessly because the pain doesn't get any better regardless of whether I engage in neo-hedonism or not and I'm left with no energy to do virtuous things, or things that I like/dislike.
So I just sit there refreshing nanochan's overboard so I can call someone a faggot for being a faggot or try my best to make a decent reply to a post but end up stopped by my poor personality and lack of study, clicking random stuff on my computer hoping to get a quick amusement by reading whatever absolute insanity normalfag cattle are saying on IRC with a straight face, listening to a song I like for the 100000th time, staring at anime pictures, and other useless transient things.
I was blessed by being aware of bad and good in a time in history when everyone practices bad and is completely unaware of what good is, but simultaneously, I am completely devoid of the energy to actually practice that good.
Discuss methods and cope toghether with your fellow nanonfrens.