Alright, Ciara:
In hindsight, our relationship was never going to work, and there were so many red flags that I purposefully ignored just to convince myself that it would.

I don't even know what I expected when we started dating. That despite you cucking Eaton for me, you wouldn't cuck me for someone else. That despite knowing the risks, I would make it work. But look where we are now: our relationship is dead and I did literally nothing wrong.

You were never really in love with me, either. You were in love with the idea of us being in love. No, not even that, you were just in love with the idea of someone else loving you and feeding you the attention you so desperately crave. You didn't even respect me enough as a person to tell me before I spent 500 fucking dollars on a bus ticket to go see you.

I'm very happy I've broken free, too. I literally called you one night, almost in fucking tears, because I thought my abandonment issues would kill our relationship. And looking back, I kind of wish they had. And, hell, yesterday, before I realized how manipulative you were, I was having constant panic attacks. I literally threw up because of you. I missed school because of you.

It's kind of funny that the first suspicion I had about you was completely right, too: you were only manipulating me into loving you just to see if you could. And then when the "new relationship high" ended, you decided to see if you could manipulate someone that was apparently more disgusted in you than I was: Richard. You guys got together the day after he had his mental breakdown.

Richard's already pretty obsessed with you, too. Said to stay out of "our" life. He's also got incredibly low self confidence, so he makes up for it by feeling superior to other people. He threatened to call the cops on both Jeremy and I. He tried to manipulate Eaton into staying friends with him by lying to him and saying you two had broken up. He tried to manipulate David into kicking me by saying I was both trying to convince him to commit suicide and threatening him with legal trouble.

All this drama that you've caused has killed the group. Jeremy's gone. I'm gone. I'm fairly certain Randall's gone. David could give less of a shit. We were literally your only friends, too. You "wouldn't have traded us for a million orbiters".


I'm not even done. I've got way too much shit bottled up inside for that.
Here's if you don't believe me about Richard. Straight from Eaton.
*picture*
But, to be honest, I'm not even mad at you.
Just... disappointed.
I expected this from the beginning, but went against my gut because I was so in love with you.
I suppose if we didn't cuck Eaton, you and Richard would have eventually.
By far, the worst part is how this has destroyed the group for me.
Hell, it even ruined the Masterchan Kik for me.
http://i.imgur.com/AfjGz1jh.jpg
Half of the people in that pic aren't even in the group anymore.
Just... look how happy everyone was.
The group is dead, and there is nothing anyone can do to save it.

The second worst part is how I still feel like shit over this, despite my realizations.
That you were pretty fucking terrible.
That the group wasn't going to last, anyways.
Everything from a month ago is gone.
I know you've told Richard about what I first wrote, by the way.
You've probably already shat on me behind me back.
Just go ahead and add him here, if you're going to do that anyways.
When I called you that night and went on a rant about my abandonment issues, you weren't even upset that I was jealous.

You only got upset when I said I thought you were manipulating me.
I realized that immediately, but I did nothing about it.
And now I'm just left with my doubt.
Was I just a game to you?
Did any of this mean anything?
And I know I'm not going to get a response from you.
I might as well be talking to a brick wall.
I know for a fact you don't even feel bad about cheating on me, either.
You literally named the other group you and Richard made without me "Cuck E Cheese's".
The only reason Comfy and Kiera are even relatively on your side is because they have no idea how far this went.
And to be honest, your relationship with Richard is going to go down in flames.
Of course, I'm heavily biased.

And you'll leave him in a heartbeat. He'll freak the fuck out. Probably dump your nudes, too. He cares about no one other than himself and constantly puts others down to make himself feel better. What makes you think you'll be any different?
The best thing you could do right now is leave 4chan altogether.
But why would you do that when you could continue to whore yourself out to scam orbiters?
But you still have no desire to change anything.
You acknowledge that you're probably going to be put in inpatient soon.
But even if you are, you won't be honest with them.
Either you'll be too anxious to tell them or you'll purposefully lie to them. Maybe both.
And nothing will change.
And it will continue to get worse.
Just like it has for the past... half year?

I'm still left with so many questions that won't be answered.
And even if they are, I won't trust you enough to believe you.
Why did you cuck me for two weeks when you broke up with Eaton immediately?
Is it because you thought you could have both of us?
Or was I just a game to you?
Or are we both just games to you?
Or do you honestly not care enough about me to bother saying anything?
Why did you even cheat on me in the first place?
Did you just never care about me?
Why were you angry about me "bragging" about us when Richard was shoving the fact that I was a cuck down my throat?
Why did you even cheat on me in the first place?
Did you just never care about me?
Or is it simply because you have no self control?
So many more, too.
But there's no use in asking.