>>135248
No she would not have. Addiction is a disease and everyone did everything they could and they tried treatment and everything. She would have died either alone or with someone else. She wouldn't have lasted more than a week or two

Jt. You are a good good person who has been through trauma. You are loved and you're not a monster. Please, for yourself and every dream you've had and for everyone who's loved you, please be safe and if it's too hard with it being her birthday then please get some treatment yourself. Hope you're sober.
You can do better than this place. You're not who you were this happened and you've been through scarring trauma. Forgive yourself. Seek resources and seek community that helps you grow.
It's gonna be ok