>>147736
This is an anonymous image board, you can't possibly expect me to show up and try to impress anyone. I'm not going to put my sunday's best on and try to make anyone think I'm something special. I know I'm a fucked up person. I worked ems for 13 years. I wake up probably once a week, where it feels like I'm still holding this premature baby that died on one of my calls a few years back. I've heard probably 50 people speak their final words in the back of my ambulance moments before they died. That shit will ruin you.

I'm not asking for anyone's sympathy. I've fucked up. I am fucked up. But I recognize that I have flaws, and I'm trying to better myself. I attend therapy and I believe in BPD. All I ask of you guys is to recognize that I'm a person, I'm fallible, and it's not hard to find yourself in my shoes.
I met this girl last june, she was really pretty, she was sweet, she was attentive, she was precocious, and she was fun to be around. I didn't love that she was 20 years younger than me, but it actually kind of fit for both of us for what we needed in that moment. There's a reason why she called me Dada and I catered to her almost like she was my responsibility. She felt too soft to not need protection in this world. And I liked providing that.