>>177423 you're right. if me and ken met at a show or something we could probably be friends since i know so much about her (have been following her since we were both 15) and we would easily have a lot to talk about (john maus, hans bellmer, lolita fashion, films). plus i'm a cute girl too. i'm just too shy. i gave up on trying to find her irl, but i have seen some of her friends out in public plenty of times at certain events. i have even had dreams about her many times. i feel guilty but can't help that she has been a huge influence on my life without even knowing i exist.