22/f, I need help deciphering whether I fit into this sphere or if I am a tourist. I have been on soc since I was 16 and r9k since I was 18 years old. During that time I met up with around 15 guys from these corners, with most of these connections disintegrating before they could even become a friendship, let alone a romance. Nonetheless, I have had all of my romances and lots of coming of age and young adult experiences happen through engaging in these circles, even getting in mutual circles with known egirls from here. I never managed to entrench myself as a discord server or r9k egirl though (for many reasons). Contacts have previously called me an egirl, but is that really the case? Am I just a simple lurker?