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>but at the same time she wants him to choke her because she's a crazy bitch.

Based on her involvement with "predators" like Marc, Kenny, Michael Sosa, JT, and to some extent Jay, yeah, she was attracted to scummy druggie assholes.

She seemed to have a lot of fantasies about living a "normal" nice straight life, which is evident in lots of her letters and posts, and even her attempt to live with Jay, but her true default setting was the exact opposite--like her fucking shitbags like JT in hotel elevators while high on xannies and fent and god knows what else.

It's in interesting dichotomy. A dark aspect of her that makes her compelling and interesting I guess.