>>186962
>>186962
>why would she "reconcile" or be your "friend"?
Idk, I can't make that choice for her. I can only work on myself and strive to be a better man every day.
>You act like a stalker and completely romantically obsessed freak not a "friend".
At first I was, or something like that maybe. It's not like that anymore. I do still love her in the sense I care about the friendship we had and would do whatever it takes to get something approaching it back. That's all I want. That friend to talk to again, that gets it.
>YOU are the one talking shit on her for the past two years
Haven't talked shit in many months. Not since she apologized, maybe before but for sure since then. Too little too late on my part, I know.
>no one else cares to drag her down it's only been you.
I've never wanted to drag her down. Not really. I want to build her up. That's all I want for anyone these days. I'm really sick of negativity. It's hard to find the positivity in this world for me but I've been trying real hard. The only place I find it anymore is in my guitar.
>who doesn't understand personal boundaries or autonomy.
I made some mistakes, but I never tried to control you. And I don't want to control you. You're your own person with your own life, I'm not trying to fuck that up in any way. I'm not trying to invade it. If she wants to set boundaries, set boundaries. That's part of communication. I'm all ears these days.
>You deserve all the loneliness and misery god has in store for you.
I won't argue with you there, Chanchan. But I'd like to change that and have been working diligently at it.