>>188346
Yeah that was the most fucked up thing I did probably out of all of it. Even if that's what I really thought at the time, voicing it was the shittiest thing I could have done. I don't deserve for forgiveness for that alone.

Wouldn't a truly shitty person not even care and just keep talking shit? Doubling down? I actually carry real guilt and remorse over all of it. And she's glad. She should be. I should feel terrible. And I do. Maybe some day in the future I'll be able to forgive myself at least for how I treated my friend at one of her lowest points in life. For being such a stupid faggot. She doesn't have to forgive me but I hope she knows how deeply sorry and regretful I am over how I handled things.