>>45118
I'm sorry, I know I'm lying to myself because I know most of the things people have said are true but again, it's like my brain simply refuses to picture her in such demeaning positions (both literally and emotionally): I see her face which I find so cute, I hear her cute voice, and I just simply cannot imagine her sucking dick, getting fucked, taking it up the ass, pegging, her face all contorted in pleasure as this all takes place, doing drugs, getting aroused by incels... I'm not saying I don't believe that it is all true, because I know it is. What I'm saying is that I simply can't imagine her in those positions she's actually been.
Jesus this all fucking sucks and I hate that it is al true. It's literally nightmare reality.