>>45125
>Yeah but she was really is/was something else, something better than all of the others
Every orbiter says this about the e-girl they obsess over. You aren't thinking straight, because of the intense parasocial relationship you have with her.

>what happened to the person she used to be? The cute yet tough tomboyish shy girl with cool and wholesome interests and genuine kindness? When did she become *this*?
As the other anon said, that girl never existed. She isn't and has never been how she portrayed herself online (or privately with you). The sooner you realize this, the sooner you move on.