>>77712
The magical thinking and religious inclinations are still separate since they are different manifestations of the same motive, magical thinking is almost similar to splitting since they are not congruent with reality and used to uphold their perception of reality which cannot be sustainable with their grandiosity via lying to themselves. That's why they view people as either completely evil instead of admitting they are evil themselves sometimes along with denial and projection. With the magical thinking that's why she is so arrogant and even superstitious while admitting that she knows it's not really real. She believes in art spirits and whatever else higher concepts so she can hide in them with this spuedo humility. She describes herself as this small bug in the grand scheme of life and a novice while putting herself above everyone else because of this insistence that she has something no one else has or is just somehow different. She avoids anything that reminds her of her mediocrity and will confabulate any reason to keep up this self perception. That also plays into her disassociation and depersonalization she even admitted to having. In short she's just trying to keep up this idea she has for herself which is unobtainable because of how high the standards are, this causes constant shame and guilt which translates into her anger mostly which includes depression which is self directed anger like self harm, to avoid these pits she tries to validate her perceptions by associating with high value people and things and through the narcissistic defenses