>>94484
>I feel horrible for ever hurting anyone
No, you don't. Otherwise you wouldn't have hurt me. Especially the way you did.

>will never allow myself to slip back into such a state again
Easy to say after the fact, isn't it? Easy to say as you cling on to the hoping cope that at least you won't do it again but the damage is already done and no retribution will be had for the hurt and pain you already caused. Stop playing the reformed soul. You hurt many and you acting as if you are now a better version of yourself won't redeem you or even less so lessen the pain you knowingly caused.