One of my only friends has less and less time for me these days. He will only want to do something once hes run out of money and weed. I have made the mistake of shouting when hes broke. I told myself I did this because I felt sorry for him but I don't think that is true. Shouting him coffee or a feed was just be paying him to hang out with me because he wouldn't have otherwise, I'm that lonely and starved for socialisation outside of conversations with my parents. I feel wronged and hurt but its my own fault.