I went outside and i was humiliated beyond belief. First of all i went to a meeting where there were only supposed to be 1 other person. What happens? I get fucking ambushed for a humiliation ritual between 3 WOMEN at the same time. We get into a room with a table and everyone is watching me. I dont want to speak so i yes nod or say "hmm". This did work until they specifically asked me several things and it became very awkward because everyone was just looking at me while i tried to hum the answer. Thankfully the guy i arrived with helped with a few of their questions. I did however have to open my mouth for a second and say some word which i dont remember. That was fucking humiliating since my hygiene is shit and therefore i probably stinked up the room. They then somehow accepted that i just hummed and said something about yes or no questions as if that was normal and that they could just ask me that. Now they probably think im some super autistic guy. Anyways after that was over i went straight for the door and went out before saying anything else.
Here comes my other humiliation.
So i arrive home and just as im about to enter my apartment a beautiful arab girl opens the door and looks straight at me. This was extremely humiliating because im ugly and hate being looked at. Anyways i thought she left after i got behind her so then i just put my hand on the door to hold it up for my mother and the girl was still standing there holding the door. So i just stopped and walked to my residence. She must have thought i was a creep because i was like right behind her holding on the door. My mother and her greeted eachother but we never greeted eachother.
I dont know why i wrote this. Its just been a bad day.