one thing i have never seen anyone talk about is how do you keep the manifestation going when you are having a depressed day and get nothing done.

i remember when i would use a paper calendar and made plans for wednesday and then wednesday comes and the depression hits, i would sit there the next day and see at this page that i planned and did nothing and that would make me depressed again, so my planning has the potential to prolong the depression even. make it worse!

that is way i tend not to plan too far ahead and not keep records of days. new day, new page, rip appart the old. if my life wasn't this complicated maze i had to navigate where i can only do certain things at certain times, i would not use a timetable at all. i have to be home before 4pm or otherwise i will not be able to find a parking space. before i understood this i sometimes roamed around for an hour before finding a parking space and it is miserable.

with everything i am doing, i still believe i am overlooking something obvious that will just let me unlock my full potential because this isn't it. it must be something small and stupid that i am just not seeing. some colossal mistake i am doing that i am oblivious to.

this is depressing, i apologize, i hope this dank video can make up for it.