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>У меня вещества вместе с изучением множества книг, а также практикой медитации создали определенное отношение к своей жизни. Для меня ценность жизни лишь в том чтобы развить достаточный уровень осознанности чтобы после смерти этого тела переродится в высших божественных мирах и там кайфовать вечно.

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>For me, substances, along with studying many books, as well as practicing meditation, have created a certain attitude towards my life. For me, the value of life is only to develop a sufficient level of awareness so that after the death of this body, it will be reborn in the higher divine worlds and enjoy life there forever.

interesting, i am convinced you have already found a lot of cool stuff in your studies that created benefits in your life. meditation to me had the effect of showing me that i have completeness inside me. the desire to be rescued, the need for entertainment, never getting any satisfaction, the childish desire for attention, vanity, luxury, those are all nothing compared to being in touch with the inner state of completeness. being happy for no reason, because happiness is my natural state and it is built-into the human hardware. i used to be more easy going about it "hey man if it makes you happy, why not. if it floats your boat, go for it" but life experience showed me that externality can't make a person happy so when i see people choose the life of vanity, hoping they can throw money at every problem i roll my eyes of how clueless it is possibly to be today. i'm saying if people found what meditation shows the way to, they wouldn't be envious of anybody in this life. there is nothing to be envious about.