Since this is a christian board and I have a few problems with christianity I'll just post my shit here. Keep in mind that I have not read the bible yet (I will do so soon). I am slowly becoming christian. I was an atheist before, for a short time (few days) I was even attracted to islam. After that as my ego, my arrogance and pride (just like my stupidity ans naivety) grew I became more and more sure by God's non-existence. Then recently, 3 weeks ago I was in deep shit (near mental breakdown) so I prayed and God answered. I still feel a bit like it was a coincidence but I don't realy care anymore, I haven't masturbated in two weeks, every time I have dirty thoughts I just pray so it's pretty cool and I grew out of my edgy nihilist phase. I don't even feel like getting shitfaced drunk, I have lost that "artificial need". I'm going to start reading the Bible soon but I am really not 100% sure about my faith yet. I have a few problems namely >God cucking Joseph This one I just cannot accept. I don't know how to say it but I just cannot believe that God would cuck one of his creations like this >Israelites being the chosen people This one is mostly due to me being ignorant of the Bible. I have read a book entitle " The Curse of Canaan" (don't remember the author's name) which explained in detail that the ones claiming to be israelites today are actually demon worshippers and descendants of Canaan but I still don't get it because he cites the talmud a lot (which is supposed to be the fake Israelites' holy book right? So why quote it?) >Animals What happens to animal abusers? Let's say someone clearly follows all the rules but is a sick fuck when it comes to animals, will he go to hell or heaven? >Pope What's up with that guy?
I have a few other problems but I can't remember them right now they just pop into my head from time to time. The cucking thing happened when I was learning hail mary prayer. These "problems" don't really stop me from believing that God (a unique omnipotent omniscient God) exists, it's just that I'm not sure Christianity is the answer. Only thing I'm sure of is that it's not islam.