>>20058
>seems counter-intuitive to the desire to be healthier
It might seem so but honestly there's not much you can do.
It's just a fact of life that you work as a biological machine that converts energy from food into work (either mechanical or mental) and if you starve yourself that makes your organism try its best to reduce energy expenditure.
Sucks to suck but sometimes you just gotta grit your teeth and bear it, it's temporary too since you should naturally drift towards equilibrium (of eating as much as you expend) as soon as you reach your desired wait (unless your desired wait is 5% bodyfat contest level starvation in which case good luck and better start injecting tren buddy)
>>20059
>self-hate is the only driving motivator
My main driving motivator (besides wanting to be healthy I guess) is that I want to see myself in the best shape of my life so I think you could say it's vanity maybe? Something like that but it isn't self hate I don't think so.