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>Yep, hidden in a big shell like me. I started that way when two "colleagues" robbed me the PS2 memory cards, San Andreas and Tekken 5 when I was 11. From then, I started to feel less innocent.

Oh man I get that too. My moment like this when someone ruined my brother's toy lightsaber (just one of those chepo ones) and seemed to expect him to give to always give up his to him when he was around. I was 8 or 9.

>Those thoughts are disheartening and I wouldn´t wish those moments to no one. I didn´t get to that point because my memory has patial memory. It considers those moments not worth to remember just to not drive into those situations. When all of a sudden, one changes overnight, it causes huge turns in direction all of a sudden, this is why it was a big test for you.

I always figured the reason why it stuck with me so strongly was not because I lost nearly all my friends, but because how long it took it to finally complete its course. And the fact that there seemed to be a self contradictory double think on nearly everyone involved and sometimes on stuff that had nothing to do with the arguments. That second reason is really what bred paranoia more so then the first What do you me you never liked the twilight zone? We watched it last week! Because it wasn't that people could betray you, it was that people could go insane seemingly for no reason and they might betray you too.

>Outsiders help a lot whenever you need a bit of support for those hard periods. They may be temporal or not be as close as you were with your friends, but they help a lot.

Agreed. I'd say I am in that state right now. No true friends at the moment but I'm far from alone. Though this is more of me just focusing more on my future then left overs of that incident

>Hmm, that explains the little to no affection to social media and how you are here.

I suppose the social media part and my relative non maistreamness could've happened naturally do to the influence of a couple of my family members, but it wasn't a given. It left with me no ties and made skeptical to group dynamics. It was the thing that fully pushed me one direction.