>>2073 >Despite the dark vibes you give out at times you have really never written a tragedy. considering the times we are living in, I don´t like writing about tragedies. There are always tragedies which are way darker, miserable than the ones I could complain about. I may have had a fucked up weekend but I have a good health, I live in a good looking town, I have good contacts these days, I have passed half of grade now,... I have told the worst part out of it but I can have fun. I have found a way to rebirth myself a little. Even this board, instead of cursing myself for all the wrong things going on this world, I am using my brain energies thinking about what I am posting next. The movie, constant activity in the fandom, playing and listening to music have entertained me for those void spots. I have however, mostly left video games, I have barely played anything during this year.
I may like darkness and prefer its way to explore it. However, I find it inexcusable to use it as something tragic save for very shitty moments. Even then, it will get translated with other things. Way too predictable and even cliche to use it as such. >Your first green significant length was escapist, your bat pony fic was just a look at a interesting perspective, your Luna fic was a whole mi of things, dark physiological vibes with a hint of political cometary but also redemption, etc. I didn´t expect to write that redemption so soon but it came because of the song behind it. I had plans to make it last for a long series yet I wrote the ending because my head wanted to write about it right at that moment (listening to the chorus repeatedly drove me to do it). I admitted I had cried while writing on it. I look at those fics and I believe that they could have been written by any other anon instead of me. I sometimes get surprised about what I have written around here. Except the seaponies fics, I don´t see myself writing those greens again so easily.
>From simply growing older and changing interests to just the off and on mental stress university to the darker politics itself. agreed. I was in fact in a sensible uphill stressful situation in the university, I was facing difficult subjects for the first time and I didn´t have any idea before that year. Getting used to their lessons becomes a huge factor for passing or failing a subject.
>My only advice,if you were miffed about not having that passion, perhaps you put too high expectations on fun, and cast off something as not fulfilling if it seems mindless to you or too simple something I did . I am not as passionate because like I said, it´s about losing that innocence and having to put my brain on a guard mode almost all the time, feeling like I cannot catch a mental break. I had visited the Warner park for example last year and I literally forgot about everything and even spent lots of adrenaline. My standards of fun have not reached an upper zone, just that I wish I could have lived with more innocence, focusing on my own stuff and leave out all the rest. Maybe that lost of innocence represents a sign of growth in the end, just it feels harder to find any hope out there.
>The movie had positive vibes that were through the roof. As simple as it was. It was a fun experience and perhaps something that brought back a good bit of positive energy. I know it made me feel happy in a way that I haven't really felt before. A simple pleasure, fun with others and team accomplishment as well all mixed into one. it was a complete ride of songs, new places and characters. Just one simple direction. I had fears of it ending up badly but by the time I realized I was having fun and left my fears, I was watching the last third by then. That week of December was probably the most entertaining one I had had (not only because of the movie). It felt like an achievement becoming a reality. I was laughing at myself for thinking that it was going to inspire me to go on...but it did and oh boy it did. A very emotional moment in which I had to hide my tears in the cinema.
