>>63332
like I said the other day I feel like I've been living in purgatory the last couple years, so it's not just you. Can only hope it's like actual purgatory and not just hell. I'm probably being a pussy and a retard and a paranoid nutjob among other things, it's not like I'm not aware of that whenever I'm a little more lucid and less petrified/dazed, but I can't help it. I don't think it'd be viable for me to start over either, I just try to do whatever it takes to keep things sane and wholesome for me and for society, to the best of my ability. That keeps my conscience clear too. everything could go to shit and I could be committed or die tomorrow or next week but at least I'll know I tried. a very impressive achievement ik