>no discussion/criticism in this thread
The thing I will write will be so long it will count as blogging anyway...

Fate... Connections... How it works... and... How it manifests?

>I'm pretty sure it was related to something that I was doing on that same day
If you don't mind elaborate pls. Might be useful

>a dream where they were on a ship and going from the ocean and into the abyss but pulled back at the last moment
The ship is a very important symbol of travel between shores continents planets worlds and realms but it's not important now.
I passed a threshold. I accidentally went below (or behind?) the root chakra or maybe the sacral? Terminologies... I was looking at my energy body with the newfound perception of mine and fiddled with multiple energy channels. When I asked my guides if I should look into this further they all went silent or just refused to talk to me. A good sign rith? Well that place taught me some things that is a necessary step on the path but you need to meditate a lot about oneness and unity before you can reliably make that step. It's something simple and way too complicated at once. It's the source code of reality. The Dao... It can appear many ways and will appear many ways because it will use your perception and memories to manifest so in the end it can manifest something that cannot be manifested by something which is your perception and memories. How will that happen? Don't ask me that yet because it hurts to explain while it's so obvious it's laughable.
Whatever back to the point.
It can manifest as the "6d chess". It looks like a room with black and white tiles all around. You can move anywhere there. When you think reached the wall it will open and rearrange so you are always in the "center". There are no gods no kings there... Only you...
As I was looking at it I thought to myself that there is no way this is "it" this is not the end there must be more things. I do not accept that this is the "simulation" and that I am "trapped here forever no matter what" so I started to look into the tiles a little deeper. On one of the black tiles I started to see some rainbow colored "wires" they looked more like some of my energy channels. I stepped on it to see where it "leads". While first I had to make the steps by myself... stepping on that high energy wire triggered the "way" to the "top". It was the craziest thing ever... Seeing "mount Olympus" manifest and seeing lifetimes worth of interactions before you in the blink of an eye. Then the emergency failsafe manifested and started to cool down my mind. Thousands of rotors cooling my mind because... True kundalini awakening is not just the kundalini flames. There is the negative kundalini too that is colder than ice and many more aspects. I learned there what is the full power of Shiva and how it works in a new degree of detail. (I opened up energy channels that made me unable to sleep... or more likely sleep was no longer necessary but it was not good because sleep is necessary for a reason. We need to recharge our "batteries" so it can have a stronger "charge". I could go on without sleep but I was weaker felt tired more easily and had a way too weak attentionspan. But now I had a new understanding how energy rerouting works to reach any effects). I gave myself a "Kundalini syndrome". The typical not having a teacher and going overboard with our spiritual "gifts". I was worried that I fucked up bigtime but then I remembered. I did this before. In my teens I destroyed parts of my mind (and restructured it) because I didn't want to bring the effects of my childhood traumas into highschool. And I knew it no matter how big you fuck up you can always unfuck it. Especially now because now I am aware of way too many universal mechanics. The ancestral cord. I realized how all my experiences with my family worked. I couldn't sleep because I destroyed or more likely awakened a big part of my subconscious. I couldn't turn it back to the previous mode. But with reconnecting with my family I could "rebuild it".