Sunflower 11/18/2022 (Fri) 23:03 Id: 53dcab No.2158 del
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I went back to a level which is not a baby but literally the time of conception itself. How the body and genetic forms and changes. How "being in heaven/paradise" is the same as being in the womb and what is the most important thing when you are leaving the womb. Crying. When a baby cries it means it's alive and healthy. If it's silent? Then it's usually dead or disabled. I had to realize the superpower of crybaby anon.

Crying as a man is seen as a sign of weakness. I was reminded of this a lot as a child. This caused me to bottle up my emotions. Then I realized how I can use these bottled up emotions in my teens. This gave me an extreme powerboost on demand. And a hairtrigger temper. But I was the one who was holding the trigger.
This was an absolutely terrible way of living because people around you will know subconsciously that "you have a gun". Whenever I got angry things went in my way but I always felt ashamed for letting my anger out. And I am not talking about social interactions. Every activity in general. Object too heavy? Get angry and you can lift it. Videogame too hard? Get angry and suddenly you have the perfect combination attack. Puzzle bothers you? Get angry and you instantly realize the solution.
This caused me to rely on "managed anger" too much. But now that I am aware how my nadises contract and pulsate when I am tapping into that anger? And how much "burnout" they cause? Yeah no way I am doing this further.
Now the problem is that I have to disassemble cleanse and rebuild the gun but now it's no longer allowed to work on rage and wasting bullets in a bullet hell game hahahahahhahahahhaaha is inefficient.
It seems crying is an important thing in the human genetic soul merger. When a baby has a problem it cries and the environment reacts so the baby will stop crying. The cry usually stems from basic human needs like hunger or soiled diaper. But there is the time when the baby cries for no apparent reason. Well... I just found out why. The incarnation process. When the baby is growing it needs an enormous amount of energy. Now that energy is partially base human genetics partially ancestral genetics and the one that the soul can manifest. Some children can grow up superfast bodily emotionally and intellectually depending on how the soul reacts to "environmental stimulation".

My problem was that my mind and body started to desync. I realized too much with not from an "anchored God" or from an ascended master but from my very own supersoul. Which is bad because that soul is the culmination of many lives. Does that mean you shouldn't meet that? NOPE you just have to increase the sync rate so you can become one. Now back to crying. When the baby cries for no apparent reason. Why does it do it. The baby is starting to get aware that HE IS FUCKING ALIVE IN THIS FUCKING GODFORSAKEN SHITTY FALSE REALITY ONCE AGAIN AND NOT IN THAT NICE WARM WOMB/PARADISE SLEEPING TO THE HUES OF THE COSMOS. This is when the "old" soul is merging with the "new" soul. But now the baby has a new "baby" programming that is trying to take effect. Gentle lights gentle sounds and the the warmth of our new home/parents make us calm down for a while. If we accept a "new fate" it goes smoothly and we will because we accepted that before we incarnated. The sooner you take control of the baby body the faster you can implant abilities from past lives into it. Now this is the wild realization that came to me. If I generate a babycry energy standard pull skills out from my supersoul realize how the skill is an energy channel which is something inherent/genetic but also something that can be built with hard work which is a culmination of energies but based on memory and experiences alone. So I realized I could give myself in-born abilities. Now this gave me a realization... I could always do this. Many times as a child there were times when I stopped thinking and suddenly solved every problem before me.