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Okay this is really weird. I just had an epiphany relating to the meaning of an energetic source I've been working with last evening that matches the meaning of this module very closely.

Don't know if this is just a random synchronicity or meaningful in some way...
I've been doing a lot of work over the past few weeks invoking the black cold-Hell energy I've been working with into my soul and body in an attempt to transform myself into something that more closely resembles a nucleus of metaphysical Truth. I believe that I succeeded into consuming a plane of this energy into my self, which increased my potential energetic output exponentially. But I ran into an obstacle in that this black-Hell energy seems to be completely incapable of creating anything. Which makes it difficult-to-impossible to maintain an coherent soul-form consisting of it, and also makes any working that requires the creation of some idea impossible. I've tried some basic manifestation working with this energy as fuel and it seems to make the desired outcome 'impossible' instead of 'inevitable' when channeled into it.

So, over the past few days I've been trying to pinpoint the meaning of a source of creation-energy that I have managed to work with in the past. I don't think it's relevant to go into the details of my history with it, but it resembles a white orb, typically floating in a black void, and when I choose to dissociate and step out of my body it acts as my center-of-Awarness. I managed to pull creative energies from it in the past but since I lacked understanding of its nature it was impossible to do any big workings with it. Previously I viewed it as 'part of my soul', but after doing meditations on it this week I decided that it would be more accurate to view it as a godform representing an archetypal concept. So after trying to find some physical things that energetically resemble the white orb, I found that the closest matching thing was 'beauty', or rather 'the source of beauty', which would be unaspected Truth. Which seems accurate but it's rather difficult to utilize since it's so conceptual. But then I was reading over the lore for a fictional magic system, and I saw a part describing the nature of mana, and the resonance of the orb clicked, indicating that these are the same thing. So, the white stuff is "Truth" and mana is magical assertion of "Truth", or that a thing is true; difficult to put into words but workable. Might have to do some more research into fictional magic systems to see if anything else 'clicks' so that I can have a better verbal handle to work with this.
But anyway, last night I tried evoking this energy into my body directly, it looked like white milk emanating from the 'source' of my Awareness. Unlike most metaphysical energies which I need to anchor in the astral to keep from dissipating until they manifest physically, this stuff almost immediately got absorbed by my body as I evoked it. ~10 seconds after it was absorbed I began getting light headed and I started smelling blood in my sinuses, so I decided not to try and push it any further. I will probably want to try some more experiments with this in the coming days though.

(posting this here since I don't want to clog up the library thread with blogposts)