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>Christian
If it's not too personal. Which one?
>I recently prayed to Jesus to get some help on this stuff
I so don't want to explain how Jesus operates. It's a mess. Did he do something?
>Michael
Michael is a bro. Summon him as much as you can. You need to learn his strength and wisdom.
>I have something going on with my throat too, I'm pretty sure I recently swallowed a sort of poisonous energy
Oh boy. So there is a stage in spirituality when you need to hold the "poison" in your throat. (This was revealed to me and I didn't do too much reading on this topic so anyone can tell me how it is "supposed" to work). The poison will be a sort of aggressive karma/desires that "circulates" in the body but because of kundalini practices it moves more freely/wildly. And when it gets to your mind it "overtakes" you. Shiva explained me that while this poison is harmful to low level entities/desires it is a sustenance to higher level/proper parts of the body. So as energies go "through" the poison in the throat they die and can't reach the mind. You need proper thought control and energy work to do be able to hold it in the throat and only there. Shiva even helped me to make the poison and to make it "more potent" and asked me if I am able to handle it. I said yes and told him to "keep going".

Then had a crazy idea. If it's a "poison" that is beneficial to some and harmful to others then this is a "medicine". So if I let this poison go to my mind... Doesn't that mean... It will destroy every habit/desires that is "seated" in my mind too?
So I went ahead and let the poison destroy half my mind. I have seen dead and dried up snakes fall down into my stomach by the hundreds. Shiva got so fucking angry about this...
This made me go into a constant half trance. I destroyed most of my subconscious patterns. I couldn't sleep for a week and other fun stuff. Had to realize the deeper workings of the subconscious and how to reactivate it. It was a rough 2 weeks. Not to mention I had to "redownload" my mind. No wonder Shiva was mad.
>>2639
>just be the blockages that I have there
If you unlock every throat blockage you literally unlock most of your psychic powers. So yeah there sure are blockages there. Work on them the way you see it fit. (You probably need to work on "lower" blockages first)
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