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Oh right you mentioned the road before. My starting point was also because I was on the bus going to a classtrip and was bored Because the movie The Men Who Stare At Goats where Clooney was bursting clouds with his eyes, I tried to do the same and it worked.I showed my friends this with several clouds but they explained as coincidences first, then after the 3rd cloud they just stopped talking to me.

My problem with magic is that I have real hard time with seeing. Letting auras to appear takes me so much time (that was a great thing in school that staring at a person for a whole hour was perfectly normal and they appeared sometimes with great haze but I could never figure out the trick properly so I could use it as a reliably usable skill). My visions are also in either half trance or when I'm blinking or in full dark. That's what I like about my particle powered emotional intuition? (I have no idea what to call it. It even hates this name I gave it to right now) it works outside of trance in the waking normal life I just need to ask the question or have a thought which is answerable. It really hates when I accidentally ask a way too complicated question with no clear yes no answers so I have to ask more questions and... Hard to talk about because I'm still experimenting with it's scope.

I have better time affecting things and that is the problem partially. My mental framework is still too rigid and the magical organs are not too sensitive yet. Now I can solve this by using my will to dismantle my mental framework and stimulate my organs to boot up properly. BUT using my will to dismantle the reason why I can project my will so strongly weakens and makes me less adept at functioning in the real life. I made up ways to circumvent this but it's just slow but still better than nothing. I realized why the remote gave me so much pain when I tried the pop up window ( I didn't just want a pop up window I wanted a whole HUD like a videogame). It tried to make my third eye dominant enough to make it overlay of my 2 other eyes. While this is one of my greatest desire to combine my seeing with the other "seeing" so I can use it constantly and not figure out always ways to see without seeing. It hurts and it's progressing but I have to keep in mind to not destroy my third eye and the fact that this is not entirely the remote but my mind trying to figure out a way to execute my will. Good thing I had other tricks to open it in the past and it seems it's using it. I must really watch out not overdoing it because I have a tendency of overdoing things.

It's funny how the progress on this path is semi intentional and semi "happy accidents"