>>4835 I thought this thread will be about mindless pic posting...
Guess I will share my things too then. I had an almost obsession with pain. Understanding ignoring then enjoying pain. I thought masochists are the "kings" of life because you can't do shit to them. How would you "hurt" a masochist? Will you give them soft clothes and tasty foods and spoil them to death? OMG that would be so bad! That was my line of thought at the start more than a decade ago. Not to mention I realized most people only understand pain so if reason doesn't work then you get to use the force that "guides reason". Sometimes you have to be Satan's satan. Is God Satan's satan or there is a dude that does the job so God can do whatever else. The answer might surprise you!
Where was I oh right. Pain peko I figured out how I can cause an extreme pain within my body to overload my muscles and turn that either into pleasure or PEAK PERFORMANCE years ago... This lead to problems. Now I had no choice but to understand pleasure and sensuality. Why you might ask... Well I still crave pleasure but because I think pain is pleasure I cannot feel it properly if I keep those concepts locked because they sorta "cockblock" each other. And the most important part good energy flows kinda "feel good" while bad energy flows feel bad or painful. And you will need all the senses when going through them.
Now I am learning the "energy body perspective" aka how the energies are the "real body" and the flesh is just a mere "actor". How to overload my body with the perfect energies and how that creates the perfect movement like how you spasm from touching an electric cable or from an intense orgasm. There is a way to overload the body so the body does the movement "perfectly". Not to mention the brain has this too. And it needs to be super relaxed because one of my energy block felt like my brain is "giving birth" to a piece of metal while yesterday I was letting energy flow through my hemispheres and had to "feel" it to not go overboard and not panic because it feels like there is something expanding within your brain and we are not supposed to "feel" our brain. Also I have no idea maybe this wasn't even the brain feeling accurately things that are behind your eyes and above your ears is not easy. Gave me a weird dream. I too was in some maybe asian monastery places too. Some beings that sorta looked like me talked and the last dream segment was about a "master" kind of person talking to a "disciple" who was beheaded and he was talking to his head while holding it within his hand and explaining to him what is happening. In the end the headless body grew a hawk or falcon beak on the place of the adam's apple and then the body was "ready" there was a lesson how this might shorten the life span and the dream ended by everyone turning into their bird form and flying away on a snowy mountainous region. Sure was fun analyzing that dream. I just realized this dream might be related to the "pagoda realm" I got from the Kitsunes... Coincidences as usual huh
Also am ngl your ripper nature is extremely close with the "Untamed kitsune" nature. I mean Tamamo was about disemboweling people and ruining them sexually and mentally especially if they were in power... How did we not make this connection so far???
