>>530
>Is this a proper sentence?
as proper as the way my awakening continues

I finally figured out what virtue is here. >>524
I completely forgot about it because every culture/religion/sect has a different albeit similar idea about it. So I couldn't place it anywhere.
Now I can finally feel it. As I was yelling with normies because my now extremely short temper and they were retarded beyond mortal comprehension as usual. I even almost felt bad about it until my realization happened. I noticed that it's not the same as my dark "shadow" anger or not the usual burning one but far more pure and energizing one. Now that I know how to make it rise... I can feel that all those cores and tubes that were taken out truly left a hollow body. I feel like a cheese.
Now I am able to notice what values count as virtue and keep on that way.
I know how to make it rise faster. And I noticed that my posture even corrects itself so the energy can rise upward properly. And now that my body constantly feels like I just did a good workout my energy levels are good. I need quarter the food I consumed before. If I didn't eat enough food the symptoms of cold/sickness always overtook me. I ate vitamin supplements like it was candy just so my immune system works. Now i know why. Parasites made me sick when they didn't get their fill. Unbelievable.
Also now I see I need to fill up my body with virtue so the holes get plugged and the parasites can't get in. They constantly try but they are so weak now that getting rid of them is minimal mental effort.

So here comes the problem once again where I still need to update my understanding.

What is karma?

As I was killing the parasites I figured out the only way to kill them is to find their "core" and destroy that. They lose their structure and the substance that makes it up loses form. Now I have a white puddle I can play with and have no idea what to do with it. I can even give it some intent but it's as long lasting as the structure I give it. If I give it a "hard" structure it even gets back it's awful taste. First the structures looked dark to me then they looked more and more white as this whole convoluted purification process went.