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Anger is still a force I am trying to tame. I need to learn not fuse it with my expressive energies all the time. I wrote this too fast because as I try to fix the egregores so the energies can flow again weird things happen.

When I was developing my aeromancy a decade ago and managed to summon a mild rain storm I just happened to sit near the radio where they said 3 people died in the town next to me because of the storm. Was wondering wtf the storm was not even that strong how the fuck did they even die was that my fault? Then I concluded that letting the drought continue would have been still worse and accidents always happen and that doesn't mean I caused it. Just because someone died while I was breathing it does not mean my breathing caused it. Storms are a natural phenomenon and the fact people are ignoring the coming clouds is not normal.
This was the main reason I tried to make my aeromancy as gentle as possible through the years.

But nowadays I am trying to unfuck the egregoric energy flows so the destructive madness people are going through does not spread. These energies can be handled reconciled and recycled into positive growth. The problem is that some weeks ago someone just happened to mention that someone lost his mind and lied on the ground and as a police officer was checking on him he stabbed him and had no recollection of the event. Now he is probably medicated for life.
Some days ago I heard on the radio how someone ran out of his apartment with knives in his hand incoherently yelling and as someone called the police on him he got scared dropped the knives and as they put him into the police car he felt unwell and died.
The symptoms are the same. Both of them lived alone in an apartment had no closed ones and were far away from the nature while being in the "miasma" of uncaring mundane energies. To awaken from that you have to lose your mind and run into some place where you are "free" to awaken. With that the energies can "connect" and your being gets rebalanced and remade. The problem is that mundane retardation "false conformity" and especially meds disturb this whole process because once you "step out of line" they call the police on you while "stepping out of line" is the first step towards awakening. The funny thing that these things just "happen" to reach me nowadays. No I don't think this is my fault because they were already close losing their mind but that doesn't mean there are no ways to negate these things.

Let's say. Every human has 0.002% chance to awaken on their own. My goal is to increase that a little bit in my vicinity but with my current way that is dangerous because if they have 20% chance towards insanity it will reach around 50% because the way I do things are aggressive. Naturally I am letting go of these tendencies because true attainment is peaceful gentle it's perfect... but that does not mean it has no violent hiccups at the start.