>>6394
>If you become a pure avatar of violence, you need an opponent in order to persist. Conflict is a two-headed snake. If one ends, the other ends with it. Only an eternal war could continually support such a being.
While this is true.
>What the fuck was that cause of death.
While I wrote this I channeled the "feeling" of the last moments.

Now that I have a "big picture" I know that the problem was that my mindset changed and with that the way my muscles and energies moved and contracted. I found out that mindset in that life it was just I never used it extensively and because I was "young" I had that false sense of invincibility which was true as long there were enemies around.
>you need an opponent in order to persist
Well said. The problem was the sudden "Mental change" because the enemy's army started to rout and when that happens the goal is to not fight enemies face to face but chase and herd them in a way without them reaching a new defensive position and most importantly make them accept your demands in the end. The problem with this
>pure avatar of violence
was that it was not "pure" it was mixed with a bunch of misunderstanding how it works and I never ever tried to find a "wind down" method because the only thing I thought about is that enemy dies = we win and nothing else mattered. My survival was never something I considered that needs to come from "me" because I thought survival = death of enemies. That life was not "smart" because that was not expected from us and if you were unable to fight and win your intelligence was meaningless. It was a sort of letting go most of awareness for a glimpse of "hyper awareness" the problem is that it was a glimpse and not pure awareness. That combat technique must come from pure awareness where I am aware of everything that is going on. That life was quite unable to develop such a high level thing nor even sought to do it.


>Conflict is a two-headed snake
I like to say in this life
>For a conflict you need 2 retards if even one of them is smart then he is able to solve that conflict and if I am in a conflict that means I too am a retard.
The problem is that sometimes being an even bigger retard magically solves the conflict because the opponent gets scared so my theory is still flawed