Sunflower 02/15/2022 (Tue) 01:15:25 Id: 72d2a5 No.795 del
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>a question about female past lives. Did you just simply reconnect to them without effort or you had to do something to be able to "sync"
I am more or less controlled by my main past life, coming to realize what took place has been a journey planned in detail by her. I've had dreams, I refer to them as checkpoint dreams. They contain a scene or a few scenes, which later appear in real life. One such dream I had (I keep a dream journal) 19 years ago, and it's still relevant. It started being "active" 3 years ago with scenes from it suddenly playing out, and me being able to see what they were. Some were even older, from when I was 7, I have an old journal from back then with some notable dreams that became real recently. It's all been planned, while from "in here" it feels like complete chaos and I think I could have died several times, then another checkpoint shows up and I see that I'm still on the planned path forward.

The real awakening to who I was/am took place no more than 3 years ago. What I had earlier were just stray thoughts and sudden inexplainable bursts of emotion and nostalgia in relation to certain events. This current world is so bleak compared to what used to be, it's like a nightmare (and that's a huge understatement). Take it back to the late 1800s and people were like gods compared to now. The thing humans have been reduced to is so denigrating, sad and pathetic there are not words to explain it.

There was also an extreme brutality and a uncompromising all or nothing attitude. I feel like a single person from back then appearing today could wreck the entire modern world. There's such a huge difference in powerlevel.

The direct first person awareness of who I was is kinda present, but I'm still current me. It's just that I'm not very strong, there's just no content to fill a mind with today, so no matter what I do it's just a shell. That's what a man is today I suppose.
I'm not confused about it, I just keep referring back to past me as real me, while this life feels less real. It isn't, it's an aspect of me that has to manifest. But it's very different.