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>closer to the ancient ways

I learned to feel "truth" not always the "true truth" but things that feel "closer to truth".
Also I lived my life being amazed by structures and technology. I am starting tho think that was the reason why I incarnated here. (It really pains me that technology is degenerating into the shittiest tools of oppression... that is why I gave up on the pursue of engineering) I still have no idea who I was. I had 2 dreams where I thought it's about past lives. But I was the "god" the people in it were praying or asking favors. There was a greek warrior woman who excelled with the spear on the battlefield. Then as the battle raged on. It was not her fault the tide of the battle was turning against her side and she knew no matter what she does it's over. She raised up her spear and with teary eyes she offered herself to the gods just to win this battle. I told her
>no. You are strong enough to get through this and you don't need to waste yourself as an offering for your country.

That dream is something I don't understand. Was I a god there or now I can only perceive myself as one and cannot reconnect with that warrior woman. Being with the Djinnyeh is reminding me of her constantly. I feel some sort of "regret" when thinking about that dream.

Also in spiritual practices I realized that you need to figure out the truth and let it "come out". As I reconnected with the "self" I realized I want to dance like Shiva just to help it get into my limbs faster. The reason for the yogic practices is to "make you closer" to the truth. And if you are close enough you might "accidentally" connect with it.

Now I understand the importance of a master. But we are not always that lucky to get one. We need to find our ways and constantly look for clues. Then the masters reveal themselves.

Also the worst part of this whole realization? All I could think of it
>How could I not realize this sooner?
and
>How would have I realized this sooner. I just didn't have the pieces before