Sunflower 02/18/2022 (Fri) 22:12:58 Id: 972fd5 No.865 del
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>less structured

Don't even remind me. All the things I built had to be destroyed because all of them were "faulty" and an obstacle on the path.

MY "supermundane" persona? The one I used to get through every bullshit life threw at me? I was thinking of communism and how it's the best and worst ideology because of retarded materialism and how it could never work till the people change and I connected to some big bearded hobo and when I asked him who he is he turned into Stalin...
Next day I was thinking about things and had a hostile thought how the world never could turn into the better until the people change. My dark fire ignited and I had the thoughts of the most genocidal maniacs constantly. I had a moment of self awareness and I said. "I found you..." My thoughts had a wait what moment. Then I picked up that dude and destroyed it. Others were minor things like I started to think with the "deadly sins" to find what "connects with it" so I can also destroy them. A long process. We create many chains for ourselves while trying to out maneuver the chains of the world.
It just makes me sad and angry. No wonder gods are amazed and weeping when looking at us.