This is the end, right? then i will confess something, i still love her, i've gotten a life, job, gf, sex, videogames, friends... but she's still missing, i was hoping that somehow when i had a normal life, the feels would go away, but they didn't, i don't give a fuck about anything right now, i want to hug her, it's horrible, like every nice thought of us being together is followed by a million sharp needles, knowing it won't ever happen, i hate it, i have to hold my tears at my job, at home, and if i ever met her again i will have to pretend that i don't love her anymore because showing any hint of it could get me in trouble, it hurts.
And to thing that i haven't been this much of a FFFFEGET for 4 or 5 years, god, i miss not being in love.
Shit another thing anon you will get these stinging rememberences and I think that describes the last few posts. You can think of it as going numb but you are not feeding this thing in your head this loving relationship You are improving anon.
You might feel like you should have to feel bad and that is not true anon. You should feel less and less sentimental towards this chick as time goes on to the point you are amazed she made you feel upset.
this must be what people call "hell", suffering without end in sight
>>12253 i fell in love with her in 2008, we stopped talking around 2010 and now that it's the current year i don't know anymore, i wish i died in my sleep, i shouldn't have ever looked back, or rather, i shouldn't have ever given up
i have this theory, this thing i call the "existential cage", in which i'm trapped between shitty memories and the seemingly hopeless future, on the other hand, i think i'm advancing, now i'm missing the NEXT ex-gf (who was the last one i had)
>>12334 >>12334 North Korea is really hard to get an objective look at for me. You see this and maybe they're living in some sort of utopia, or maybe one of those kids is getting drowned for messing up.
Think I can get a tessen (iron fan) and walk around Japan with it? I know there are restrictions on carrying knives there, but if a Yakuza attacked maybe I could deflect the blow and pummel him with ome of these iron rods. The best part is no one would know I was carrying a hunk of dense metal instead of a harmless fan. https://youtu.be/tus7kIOr5NI
I usually carry one of those too for the same reason. I own a small computer store and some Asian looking fellows came in looking for some extortion money I think. I mostly just used the fan for deflecting knife blows, but I know I broke one of their hands with it when they came in for a face punch. I usually carry a paracord bracelet as well. It comes in handy for creating hand restraints for the assailants when you wait for the police.
I once had this dream where I was on the deep web and I ordered this package that was super expensive but allowed me to take drugs on a plane because nobody checks for drugs on first class. Death was there but he didn't do anything. He was hooded but he wasn't a skeleton I think. I took the drugs and not much happened and I vomited.
Another one was where there was this anime dude on a roof top. There was like this black hole explosion he was kinda sucked into and then he became a woman and he said "Timeline" and then was super obsessed with this ring and it was all in this weird montage.
The final one Imma talk about is like I was in school but everything is kinda blue and the lockers are kinda everywhere and it had a super weird structure. Anyway, my English teacher at the time was talking to me and then there was a jump cut and she was half-naked and then me and my friend were walking along a weird (maybe diagonal) corridor and then he teased me about me screwing my teacher being a fetish. Also, there was this chubby Asian girl lying on the floor who wanted doctor pepper. I'm kind of attracted to Asians and fat people.
Does anybody have any ideas as to what these wack dreams mean?
deep web dream basically comes down to you thinking your talents and/or background are going to carry you through some hurdle. the bit at the end means whatever you are doing or want to do deep down you probably don't think is actually worthwhile.
I don't know if there's any meaning to that second one to be honest, I rarely remember dreams like that where it's just more like some weird scene just playing out.
I’ve been keeping a dream journal sporadically from 2009 now – lost two or three years worth of entries when my PC crashed a few weeks ago, since I hadn’t updated the backup in forever.
I’ve got some of the lost entries written down on paper though, so I’ll be able to restore some of it.
If you are going to keep a dream journal, be sure to keep something to write on (and with) close to your bed. If you want to remember the most of your dreams after waking up, don’t get up right away, but lay still and go over the dream in your head – then write it down on paper.
I don't live near India or plan to move there. Is there any use for Hindi? Good media, easy pussy, cool stuff to see on a vacation? I do find Indians fun to talk to, they're always upbeat and telling jokes.
India has a MAJOR public defecation problem along with other Hygiene issues. No matter where you go over there your mileage will vary. The only use for learning that sanskrit language is if you're working in the tech industry. Also the pussy varies, some of it is pretty good looking but it ages like sour milk.
>>12328 I always wanted to read the Mahabharata, the Vedas and stuff about Sikhism, but it's boring enough in English. Indian shit does seem interesting but I've only really met one or two Indians that aren't kind of shitheads. Yeah, they're generally nice but working them they're usually cocky, think they know english perfectly when they know it pretty well. This is just what I've observed from the imported ones as it were. I'm not sure on the pussy part but if you're into fat labia I think Indian girls probably win out in that category. It's probably an interesting country to visit but at the same time it's rather intimidating due to its size and diversity but at least there won't be a line to use the bathroom.
I don't think knitting will impress many girls, likewise making shitty mothers day crafts. I always keep a stash of locally made jewelry for these kinds of scenarios. Making it yourself is really easy too, unless you've got no style.
>I just found out about Chinese knotting. If it were Japanese instead of Chinese I would like it more. That's pathetic.
It just brings me back to my old Xbox which randomly turns off now, I'll never forget the first time I played Otogi 1&2, Metal Arms Glitch in the System, Second Sight, Psy Ops Mindgate Conspiracy, Breakdown, MGS2 and so many other mindblowing titles filled with so many awesome ideas.
I clicked a couple of this guys things. He's just a piss ant. I think in 5-10 years this guy or someone like him is going to get murdered or seriously assaulted doing their ebin vlog shit and then we'll get to watch PSAs about not being a dick when you're streaming. Remember kids it ain't all about the memeing, starring some half baked VR mascot.
I am dumping some games links I found here until I check through each one before posting them in the sticky. Feel free to help or point out any with bad licensing. I will likely only add those with stable gameplay, not alpha stuff, but enjoy the selection anyway.
>>12281 Not really, they have their moments though and aren't THAT afraid of making politcally incorrect jokes. For example during their GTAV "playthrough" recently they decided to play as a Chimp Via mods while playing as Michael. During this, Michael's nigger mom was watching a commercial for welfare queens and they all just started giggling like faggots saying they didn't mean to be racists.
Mind you they're not /pol/ tier, they're just degenerates who want to have fun.
They're certainly better than Cr1tikal, that fucking cuck got a mod for his comments during livestreaming now and that mod has been banning people for not being a nigger lover. I think it's worth mentioning that the person who became mod got said status by sucking on Cr1t's metaphorical cock by donating something close to like $1800.00 ever since he started streaming regularly. To be fair though Cr1t is a tattooed, drug using degenerate not just a cuck, so it's for the best I decided to distance myself now.
I've never really seen /b/ banning people until now (unless they were spamming the shit out of the boards or something) but recently I was given an extremely long ban with an excuse given by the mod similar to how when mods have no reason and just write in something stupid like "spam" to just have an excuse. the quality of 8chan /b/ has been horrible (a vast understatement) for a while now presumably due to shills fishing for info and goons from other places posing as /b/ users but only posting low quality threads until the whole board is worthless.
anyone else who reads this should know that this is the state of that board right now.
>>12168 /b/ has always moved in cycles as i understand it. Sometimes there are good threads but always after many very poor threads. Like the dust is settling after a fiery shitpost extravaganza. Only that things are going to be extra shit all over the net for the reasons >>12187 points out. Bitching about other people is an strong American tradition, after all.