for the record i had to revive her with NO NARCAN because i didnt know what narcan was at the time TWICE. that's way better than any of my detractors could have done. that isn't negligence, she was suicidal for years. her heart was set on dying. the last thing she asked me was if i loved her and if i would marry her one day. died with a fucking smile. she was my soulmate and i was the only person who understood her.