I wasn’t seeking attention. I posted that while having a worse than usual hypomanic episode. This was the first one that seriously worried my family. Usually I am better at self-isolating but I was running around acting crazy. Still feeling weird. It wore off before nighttime when I planned to do that. I wanted to say goodbye first.

The hypomanic episode occurred at the end of a really bad dpdr episode triggered by stress from a particularly awful self-loathing spiral. For some reason I sometimes get hypomanic episodes instead of euphoria at the end of bad dpdr episodes. I also have them regularly.