You should be nice to yourself, Anon.

Why do you people self harm?
I genuinely don't get it.

>>74919
It’s fun and makes me feel better for a bit

>>74919
Also cis people would have reservations about hurting their bodies but I already hate it so much that scarring it doesn’t bother me.

cvt urself for 764

>>74929
764?

>>74929
I did just do 4 more cuts anyways

Updated image
https://temp-image.com/5vf7MWcObMKSW8k

I really need to conquer my fear and start going deeper honestly. This is pretty pathetic

>>74932
cvt deeper

>>74934
>3.34 MB
lmao CIA funded satanist larpers can't even make their shitty images lightweight. Bloated like your fat body, instead of telling people to cut themselves you should instead cut weight and learn how to make pajeet tier images.

>>74934
I will. So fucking sick right now I can’t atm

>>74934
You guys are so pathetic. Just spamming random people until one reluctantly gives in to the constant harassment. Get a life.

The only ones in that stupid shit are feds or literal retards.

>>74942
>>74953
CIA is sinister and noctulian
>>74947
im waiting.

>>74914
dont listen to them nona

>>74955
I will cut again as soon as I can. I was already a little bit sick but I think cutting distracted my body and made my illness worse or something.

>>74955
I'm literally shaking rn. Your hate ... it's TOO POWERFUL
Don't forget to like and subscribe
Link in the description

Still super fucking sick but I did a few more anyways. I think I blunted my razor too much because it kept not cutting.

https://temp-image.com/4PfhXD7Uih22q0T

anon this is worrying

>>74989
…
I wouldn’t be doing this if I was mentally well.

>>74989
Leave and don’t return to this thread. You don’t have to see this if it upsets you.

It’s fun and makes me feel better for a bit

>>75045
That’s what I said.

>>74973
cut the star of david into ur thighs

A few more and my first styro!!! My boyfriend doesn’t need to know. This is a new thigh, all cuts are today

>>75101
I drew a smiley :)

>>75102
this really hurts my feelings :(

>>75103
But it was a smiley face??

>>75101
>>75102
embarrassing cat scratches, 95% of the people i have seen cut, cut deeper than whatever this is

Very hot unless you're a guy then fuck you fag

>>75110
faggots are board culture

Attention seeking whore alert! Attention seeking whore akert!
you should just hang yourself you dirty cracker bitch

>>75104
That’s me…
I will not be hanging myself.

Back in the day I always told the fat goth girls in high school they did it the wrong way.

>>74933
No, stop being depressed about the stupid crazy world, nothing is wrong with you, you are just taking shit too seriously and it depresses you. Hell, anyone who takes the world or our society seriously would get depressed. Live life for fun and make some friends, get them drunk, get drunk yourself, throw a party and just let shit happen. That's what we did back in the day, fuck all.

>>75121
a bot wrote this, ignore that and cut deeper

>>75122
Holy shit I didn't expect a response that fast here, hello anon. No seriously, stop taking life so seriously, it would depress anyone.

>>75122
Are you on meds? I'll tell you the REAL SOLUTION. Get off them. The whole psychiatric industry is a MASSIVE SCAM, FRAUD. Literally! SSRIs are fucking poison. The pills they give you? Fucking alcohol does so much better than anything you are taking by doctors. It's a racket honestly. You would feel 1000% better being with people you trust and know well, and getting along with them, getting drunk with them too. That's what I did when I was young and I never regretted it. I even dropped out of high school! NO REGRETS!!! Society today is such a fucking scam so no regrets. Live with my family and nothing could be better. We throw parties all the time, BBQ, bon fires, listening to rock 'n roll via Foobar2000 surround sound speakers and amplifier and fucking get drunk no fucks given. Stop taking life seriously it's all a fucking joke!!! You'll be so much happier :)

>>75121 >>75124
False. I’m very mentally ill.
>>75122
I will tonight. Thank you for the advice.
>>75125
I’m not on meds at the moment. I will try drugs though

>>75124
>>75125
unc im not op im telling him to cvt deeper

>>75127
Her

>>75121
That's why everyone should hate normies.

>>75126
Get sunlight. Get TF off imageboards and social media. Eat fruit. Stretch. Meditate. Try this for a week. Too much? 5 days. Too much? One day. One hour. 30 minutes. 20.10. fucking 5. So small that it's impossible. 1 second. Don't even take tiny steps, just put your walking shoes on. Just look in that direction.

>>75134
But.... that's exactly why some of you are miserable, you are trying to change a world you cannot possibly change, you are trying to roll an 800lb rock up a steep hill with no help. Shit like that would drive ANYONE mad, and often does. There were times I also cared about the world I lived in for a while. That is until I learned there is absolutely nothing I can do to change it, that our society is systemically corrupted, all our politicians and media are liars, everything the media claims is fake and gay including all the wars, when you finally give up and walk away, re-establish connections to friends and family, let shit happen and roll with it, get drunk sometimes to ease the pain to live and forget, your mind will start to heal, the weight of the world will be lifted from you and you will start to hate less and less, and be more happy about what you can make happen for your own life and lifestyle. Abandon the institutions like school, doctors, medical care, any corporate social media, any television service, all of that shit. Pirate media, have offline physical copies of everything, establish a group of trusted relationships who want to be around you and have fun with them and go from there. You will be far better off, you can pool resources, get drunk with them, you can fuck your lady friends, listen to music by a bon fire in the backyard, eat good food, maybe shoot some guns at a range with them (or on private property if you or someone you know lives rural), etc. As far as the world I learned no one really cares what I think anymore, it is not going to change because I don't like it or trust it.

>>75139
That's a good start to kick an internet addiction. I tend to limit myself to morning hours on the internet these days. The rest of the day I'm offline or have my p2p/torrent laptop running in the background.

>>75139
>>75174
>>75175
shut up and let the nigga cut in peace jeez

>>75177
Thank you anon

Intended to do multiple but got distracted.

Did this one a few hours ago, sorry I wasn’t able to photograph it right away. It was pure, beautiful styro.

Check out how much blood I lost!

>>75108
Is this embarrassing too?
>>75401

Another image

Only wypipo do this! Though i guess you could say only whites have the mental capacity to brainshart themselves into retarded shit like self-harm. Le horseshoe or whatever. If you’ve gone to the point of cutting your skin open you should just see a shrink but you’re on endchan kek

>>75401
>>75403
>>75418
do more
>>75455
we dont care pajeet

That's stupid, only really dumb people hurt themselves. You should take on a more productive hobby. Touch some grass and go fishing. You would be surprised how much your mood and attitude towards life changes for the better.

>>75455
Shrinks don't always help, in fact it's another big dirty profitable business to sell drugs and patch problems rather than actually addressing the REAL issues.

Stitched up

No anesthesia or painkillers of any kind btw. Got 6 hours of sleep before the operation which is better than my average.
>>75457
I’m going to wait on doing more so my body can focus on healing this cut.
>>75468
So mean :(
You’re right. I deserve these cuts because I’m such a retard. I should cut even deeper next time.
>>75469
Thank you anon for helping me justify not seeking help

>>75475
but cuts look cuter without the stitches and healed scars, you need to cut more while they are fresh

Got upset away from home. Only had a soda can. These are the best I could do with what I had

>>75536
Creative

>>75455
Tbf you do need a higher EQ and IQ to turn inward and not aggressively lash out at others and their property.

I have an idea for a self harm “project” which I’ll be focusing on working towards. I’m not sharing it yet because it’s very risky and I may not go through with it.

Shit like this is why we need 256NOODLE. http://tmz7yg6vgt3n6t3wxaggk5rykwtvjqdvymjm2bis23prxk5stpuabqyd.onion/

This is something loser goth fags do. Typically ugly fat goth bitches. No offense anon. Try getting another hobby like smoking some weed or drink some beer, watch some classic comedy or do something better with your time. When I was young we got stoned, skipped school and watched Cheech and Chong movies. Ah the fun good 'ol days!

>>75602
indian hands wrote this

>>75603
You must be very young not to know American teenage stoners across the country absolutely LOVED and ADORED Cheech & Chong and their humor. The days of real comedy genius.

>>75602
I don’t care

Not doing the project. Sorry I haven’t been on top of posting my cuts. Enjoy the first round I did(very shallow styros) with this my new box cutter.

Fuck forgot to attach image. What 4 hours of sleep per night does to a mf

Stopped posting my cuts again because I’m depressed. Been doing a lot of dph. Some sloppy cuts I did this morning.

A few more. My skin is shitty because I haven’t been taking care of myself.

Too late to get high :(

Hope you guys haven’t abandoned me

Thinking about doing a deep cut with my scalpel

Retard.

Finally committing suicide tonight. Goodbye. I’ll update again before I slash my throat. Might do a heart first.

Here are some more slashes

>>75856
attwhore.

I wasn’t seeking attention. I posted that while having a worse than usual hypomanic episode. This was the first one that seriously worried my family. Usually I am better at self-isolating but I was running around acting crazy. Still feeling weird. It wore off before nighttime when I planned to do that. I wanted to say goodbye first.

The hypomanic episode occurred at the end of a really bad dpdr episode triggered by stress from a particularly awful self-loathing spiral. For some reason I sometimes get hypomanic episodes instead of euphoria at the end of bad dpdr episodes. I also have them regularly.

stop cutting yourself
and seek help

I cannot afford to seek help right now.

How can you afford to continue NOT seeking help?!
ask yourselves, honestly!

GET A PET. OR ENLIST IN THE MILITARY! or hell tell a parent Tell a family member of any kind or a friend See a shrink tell an actor Do anything but tell people on the Internet who are going to be the first people to tell you to hurt yourself more Usually some Especially here Hell even experimenting with drugs would be better than cutting yourself open It's not fun It is literally hazardous! and I'm not just saying that because of the risk to bleeding out have you ever heard of infection? Your body has literally built skin to keep the outside out!! You want to get Cellulitis? you want to get sepsis? you want to get staph? MRSA? All you're doing is inviting tragedy even if you should decide otherwise about how you feel about how you feel. You're conforming to a very destructive and negative behavior pattern And yes you are conforming Just because you're not doing what the Normans are doing doesn't mean you're not conformist. Instead of channeling it into something that nothing but harm channel it into something that you that expresses you in a way that does not endanger you! please! Get a pet get something that needs you every day every time you wake up it needs you Take charge of it Take responsibility for caring for it It'll give you purpose and that animal will give you love. Plain and simple

At the end of the day the one who's going to have your back for the longest in your entire life is you yourself and the only thing that you have control over in this life is how you react and how you behave! you choose To react it's not always easy but it's the closest thing to control that you have you definitely can't TRULY control other people and you can't control the world.

adversity And hardship are difficult yes. But at the end of the day they are the blessing that allows us to grow character growth True moral character growth It is a gift that we have to learn the hard way a humble way. It's the only thing that makes good people suffering makes sense. Because if everyone lived their life in some hedonistic paradise where everything was handed to us, We'd all be shallow bratty shits. And also it's literally impossible for everyone to get their way.

>>75879
Just stop it, move away from anything sharp for a bit and get some help. Can't afford it? There are some free crisis line contacts in several countries, but it depends on where you live...... Please just stop cutting yourself. At least, tell yourself just one last night every single day :)

>>75880
Not op but talking about negatives is useless. Talk about positives to moving in a different direction. The brain works much better that way.

>>75879
Low EQ. You don't need gay therapists. You need silence, meditation, journaling, nutritional food, etc. not all at once. It won't stick that way. Most mental illness is biological (muh chemical imbalance) so the solution is biological. Take it slow. Don't berate yourself. When you have some thought (self hatred, craving to cut, whatever) sit with it for a minute in silence, just notice what it does to you physically. Then decide, you can give in. Just be aware, over time you weaken impulses

>>75871
>>75880
>>75881
>>75882
>>75883
>>75889
let OP cut in peace you weirdo jeets

>>75899
true that

>>75899
Thank you anon

>>75880
>>75881
Why do you care so much? You didn’t have to write all this.

>>75882
I can’t stop and I don’t want to. Psych wards will confiscate my HRT and stop me from shaving.

>>75880
Enlisting in the military, any military today, is suicide. He should find a hobby that does not get himself hurt or killed.

>>75925
If you get one infection, all it takes is one, you will inevitably end up at a doctor's office and/or emergency care. The pain and disability from just one bad infection will force you there whether you intended to go or not. Just like a bullet wound or a broken bone would.

>>75938
If I get a serious infection, then I’ll probably just kill myself. I’m kind of hoping that will happen.

I don’t usually sterilize these days, just cut and cover.

Accidentally overcropped. Full picture

>>75899
This fag isnt cutting in peace if it's being spammed online

>>75942
fmstl

More

Fmstl

19 slashes so far today. I’m going to go purchase a new knife soon then probably do some more.

This swiping strategy is SO MUCH MORE FUN!!!

Instead of cutting myself, I gorge on junk food which is probably way less damaging not to mention making me far uglier had I just been a cutter. Scars look cooler than stretch marks.

:p

I'M A SAD LONELY FAGGOT!!!!!111
HERE IS SOME PERSONAL STUFF ABOUT ME, DON'T bully ME WITH IT!!!!!!
No one gives a fuck mentally ill retards

Super dissociated today. When I went out to buy medical supplies I kept getting lost. People were minifigures made of rubber and plastic. Plastic toy buildings and trees all impossibly far away. Got lost in the store probably ten times.

>>75971
at least u got out

Committing suicide

Fucked up slashing my femoral. Slashing my carotid. No drugs involved, not manic or anything.

Beans are hidden now but were very yellow

anyone else have cravings to hit themself instead of cutting? I don't cut but I hit myself like a retard

Left note inside my room outside my bathroom door saying not to come in and to call the cops. Abiut to slash when I heard the photos taken and the paper had moved. Oh god oh god

I’m going to wait for the police and go to the psych ward. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry

The only person home has no idea what I was talking about. I must have had an auditory hallucination. The police aren’t coming. I thought I left the paper pointing to the door but idk

A hallucination saved my life.
Thankfully I washed my hands and put on my scarf and hoodie before talking to him so he has no idea

The hallucination:
I heard the door open, then heavy footsteps and 4/6 loud photos being taken, then footsteps and the door being closed iirc

OP that's very hot but you need help. I'm glad you're safe. It'll be okay<3

I’m killing myself now after all. Goodbye.

Her’s the failed femoral artery severing:

I fell asleep crying in bed and felt more okay afterwards. Sorry I’ve been so unstable.

Love you OP. I'd love to talk 1 on 1 ;_;

>>76028
Why not?
Dm me at @anotherttttalt

This is it. Got caught anyway. Quick pic of all my cuts

Some fun. Kms now

Message didn’t send

See ya tomorrow morning op

>>76058
Hello anon :(

>>76069
How's your day been? I love your blood, very attractive. You have the cutest cuts <33

>>76072
Not great. Really worn out emotionally from yesterday but recovering.

Been trying to quit. Shallow styros

Working my way back up

>>75880
NOT OP and late to this thread. If you did your research that there are not many happy ending for individuals who are depressed. I've been depressed for over 7 years and cyt myself many times.

Let me ask you a few things so you could "POTENTIALLY" understand.

Do you want to be tied to a bed in a hospital if you tell the truth?

If you want to shower and all the hospital gives you is tear free baby shampoo... Would you still want to shower?

If you were a major threat to yourself do you want a nurse watching you 24/7?

And lastly: If you aren't on state funded program (If you are in the USA) how would you pay the $100,000 bill afterwards?

Being dead gives us the freedoms and pain from ourselves. But sometimes it doesn't work or your family wants to keep you alive for their own benefit.

-From an Anon that has ben there and done that before.

>>76264
>Being dead gives us the freedoms and pain from ourselves
lol wut
nice reddit spacing faggot

Relief.

A few more next to the last one

>>76264
>>75880
retarded normgroid cuck copes. i recommend hard drugs and child pornography (in minecraft ofc)

>>76286

>>76264
Stfu and stop complaining. Turn off the porn and meditate. I did 4 hrs a day for 2 months, shit killed my depression almost permanently. Get sun, eat real food, talk IRL, there's a reason fags say this shit

>>76285
Oh God, c'mon. Your body keeps fighting and healing those cut for you. Just stop it, at least do not make them work harder.

>Turn off the porn
I don’t watch porn
>Meditate
Who has time for that?
>Get sun
I do
>Eat real food
I do
>Talk IRL
I do

These will have to do for now :(

I really want to cut deeper.

Haven’t been having any episodes now that I’ve been getting good sleep by the way :)

>>76300
*Hypomanic episodes. I still have dissociation of course

>>75474
>>76301
Anon you really don't need to pander to doctors for this you can buy stuff at home to stitch yourself up for a lot cheaper Like this skin glue stuff and you press the skin together and put a big bandaid on I forger. Anyway you also do not really need stitches unless it's bone deep, I've had a number of deep cuts and never stitched them up just bandaid and aloe vera when they've scabbed. drinking stinking nettle really helps it blood clot fast so you don't get ruby all over your bed n clothes well it may take a bit, but I had a big cut on my leg that soaked my pj pants n after drinking the tea it clotted really big gooey like a mini liver.

>>76304
*Stinging nettle tea
sworry in retarded

>>76298
You don't need to make time. You don't need to sit for an hour in a silent place. You can do it anywhere. Just stop thinking, pay attention to the sounds going on or your breath or movements as you walk

I’m going to do a big session soon

>>76311
Maybe one day if I decide I want to get better

Show more, like more of your arm or leg or wherever you're cutting. Covered in cuts so hot

>>76286
>i recommend hard drugs and child pornography (in minecraft ofc)

Dude... What the fuck is wrong with you? I hope your nearest federal agency comes at your door and kills you. pedotard

>>76304
I prefer to leave wounds unclosed so that they leave better scars. If I have to close my wounds, I want to use sutures for the pain.

I purchased kaolin hemostatic gauze to use sparingly whenever I can’t stop the bleeding.

>>76271
>nice reddit spacing faggot
Thanks. Nicest compliment I got all day today.

>>76304
By the way, I did those stitches myself. Sutures are cheap.

>>76298
Agreed fellow anon. Did it and it didn't work.

>>76292
But cutting is fun :(

>>76331
I can't believe we're both on at the same time. Can't sleep where I am LOL.

>>76331
From one suffering anon to another. I'm starting to think things aren't going to get better. EvEn ThOuGh EvErYoNe SaYs ThAt It DoEs.

Just know you're not alone on feeling this way. Don't worry if anyone doesn't understand us.

Talk to you later on this board.

>>76325
Here’s a picture showing all of my cuts

do your genitals faget, or you don't mean shit

>>76342
Jeez you've been busy. Did you sleep at all last night?

>>76286
gigachad behind this post

>>76349
I slept in. I’ve been getting enough sleep but my debt is far from> repaid.

>>76333
Talk to you later anon.

>>76342
are they like your gills to breath???

>>76342
Amazing! That looks so good ty

>>76343
I’ll do my genitals eventually. I want to work on my control first.

>>76360
Lol
>>76362
You’re welcome.

dont tell me op is a guy. stfu stfu stfu

>>76369
I’m a tranny unfortunately

>>76373
MtF goshh u look good op

>>76375
Yes, MtF. Thank you anon

Just realized I did the heart upside down. Fuck my life. Should I bean for my retardation?

To be fair I’m very tired and I got overexcited at drawing blood for the first time with the tool.

I’m not a stupid person when I apply myself. I’m a huge nerd. I’m studying cybersecurity. I have little common sense sometimes but I’m not a stupid person.
I might cover it up with sandpaper.

I really want to kill myself for this but there are a few people I care about who’d be sad.

I can’t go out over something this stupid.

>>76422
I understand. I thought about my pets a few years ago before I decided not to go through with it. Now I'm debating on doing it again because people (including family) don't listen to me or my needs.

>I’m a huge nerd.

I honestly see nothing wrong with being a nerd. If you're studying cyber security are you happy doing so? Unless if you're in a country where the debt is so fucking high just for taking the classes for it. *cough*United States*Cough*

Then I understand why.

>>76424
You don’t think I’m a retard? Saved all my photos and was planning on deleting the post.

>>76425
I am in the US but I’ve been taking online courses. It’s actually not too expensive that way. I’m not saying being a nerd is a bad thing. I have plenty of good reasons to hate myself anyways. I was trying to prove that I’m not stupid. I just lack common sense spmetimes.

>>76424
Do you want to talk? Drop your discord.

>>76427
No I don't think you're retarded.

>I just lack common sense spmetimes

So do I. I hardly ever got out of bed today. Happy Easter fellow anon.

>Saved all my photos and was planning on deleting the post.

Do what you want. I'm happy I got to talk to you before anything happened.

>>76428
If you're the OP of this post.
endchanuser4326 is my newly created discord.

>>76430
Sent

Thank goodness for hemostatic bandages. The blood was spilling out so fast.

>>76439
What are you using

>>76440
Safety razor blade mainly and for that bean.

>>76441
>Safety razor
>doesn't use it safely
retard

Haven’t been photographing my cuts. Baby bean

>>76432
Accepted. Hope to talk to you soon.