I played Escape From Tarkov(I found a pirate version with a single player mod/Server thing).

I don't know, for how long it has been in development there isn't much in it, I had been wanting to play it for years now. Basically you just load out a character with the equipment you have and then you pick an area to go to(and loading into it takes a while too) and then explore that area for loot and enemies to shoot and loot. It's not really that interesting, I think the setting is not that great and even the weapons and equipment are lacking, there is a myriad of AK variants but outside of that not much, not even common weapons like a SCAR, G3 or FAL. AND YOU CAN'T PLAY A S A GIRL!!!

I guess the idea was to create a battle royal type thing but where you can keep the equipment you get and use it in the next game(you also lose the equipment you have on you if you die) but it doesn't work that great for that and it does not take long to find the best weapons and equipment and then what? You don't have much of a reason to play anymore at all.

You can do a lot of weapon customization but that is about it. Modern weapons are annoying like that, they all look the same know, they are covered in picatiny rails, often use the same kind of systems and they mount the same third party optics and accessories. They lack soul and individuality.