It's funny, it might be tmi and nobody cares but I developed some kind of a defense mechanism whenever shit sucks and I completely disassociate with my life.
Basically I've been feeling kinda down and I was just letting the things run until they improve but I've thought about it today, as in I have actually asked myself "What is the reason that I feel like shit?" and my ultimate answer is basically that I've let myself mentally turn off again because I don't feel like pushing myself.
Well, the thought process was kinda more elaborate but I am basically wasting time idly day after day (except for workouts/work) because I want to wait till I get paid because I think that'll make my mood improve, but there's nothing stopping me from just you know… Not wasting my time and doing things and pushing myself in other ways too instead of being bored out of my mind.
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