i was upset to hear about 8kun coming online because in my crazy fucking head i thought i had a specific task to basically make it rain while we are here on endchan. This is my home chan and by 8kun coming back that would mean that i have failed. After the last few days I had remembered how i couldn't keep up on 8chan and that pace was to be expected here. Also according to the post on 4chan this was only temporary. Still I feel like i am missing something and that i need to do or dig or meme something and its driving me insane. I am only saying this not out of any kind of fagging but because i have a weaponized autism and i want to succeed in whatever is expected of me and im sure others feel different in that they are waiting for 8kun to come online. Because this chan is my comfort zone i felt specific notQ drops might have even referenced me as a selected anon to commence in dumping symbolism. Just a theory probably insane and i apologize for that. I know its not about any single anon we are all on the same level. But this is an issue of the possibility of me not living up to my level and sinking us all down.