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>dat wat dat ego do. I don't know if by "retarded" there you meant immoral or just stupid or both, but I'm often torn between seeing myself as an useless, ungrateful leech or a victim of circumstance (including life itself to a degree) who never actually owed anyone anything. there's probably some truth to both
Have you ever tried the "become what you think about" method where you think of yourself as capable of doing anything (this is true) and then trying to do something