>>1753
>the constant lust for females while being disgusted by the flesh
Yep. It stinks.
>>1755
>eating red apples constantly. I asked him why he is eating apples constantly and told me
>>don't look for a meaning in everything you see
I'm trying to avoid unhealthy sweets so I replace them with fruit. But I'm not very fond of fruit so I just buy whatever is cheap. For the past year the cheapest have been Polish red apples in 1kg bags. If someone asked me why I always eat red apples, I'd have to reply
>it's complicated
because I know the reason Poland exports red apples is that only certain types of fruit can be transported without getting bruised, so those are the ones available. But that still won't explain why I eat them.
>>1755
>How do you even able to perceive these maps
14 years of trying to understand the structure of the external world. I work with small sections of this daily so I just have to understand it. Writing it down and sharing it is a way to concretize is in a concise manner. Sometimes when a document is shared it turns into an astral scroll or book and spiritual entities can also use it.
>>1759
>why "vampirism" is a sort of "dead end"
They get stuck on -4D and can't grasp that they need to move down through hell to come up on the other side if they want to reach bodhisattva. In the end they have to simply wear themselves out until they drop down against their will, then they realize the way down is the way up.