>>1892
>What actually happened?
I found some deep knowledge that was way too dangerous for someone of my skill level, without a good supporting structure I fell hard, as if I was flying with wings of wax and got too close to the sun :^) . AFAIK If I wasn't undead, I'd be dead. I believe that it's something that I can't talk about. I thought I had everything and then lost it all in one go, it was the darkest time of my life.

>I took a look and you have strongly shining red and green gong already. Whatever that gong attracts should be all over you right now.
Interesting, but its not a gong that keeps building up, like with gong wheels is it? Knowing that I already have gong helps dissuade my fears, thank you. My experince with gong is that its very strong and I leak it somehow, and that makes the energy around me quite dense, to the point where I can see beings without closing my eyes. I'm the "crybaby" anon, so yeah I still have issues with Lucifuge, so I worry that my issues will worsen if I get more energy and I start seeing beings with my eyes open, but if that wasn't the case I'd definitely get a space station, specially if I could reincarnate in one.