new years wasnt bad at all. was at party of friend, got moderately drunk, ended up having sex with girl who was friend of friend of friend.

but still maybe i'm getting old maybe its tupper but the days of doesnt matter had sex are over. girl was nice but felt no attachment to her so yeah dont regret it at all but wasnt that great either. light years from having sex or just being together with soemone you really like and care about. worries increase after giving it some thought. who can compete with tuppers? i feel there's a hole between real humans who are not ideal and ideal tuppers who arent real. you know what i mean? probably not