08/23/2021 (Mon) 21:50:31
yes, I chatted her up all night, she is a very nice person and respects everyone. I think she is trying to make everybody welcome in a weird digital hug way but it's just showing how nice she has to allow us to have a part of her considering having to work and basically be a man for herself. I have lost a lot of past assumptions about her and it's been cool, downright inspiring seeing her develop and overcome difficulties but I also feel bad as she's just like us with personal issues and a heavy load the autismo, but ultimately I have it way worse yet even I could escape neetdom and build a good life. I have seen way worse people than her take off and build themselves up. I don't doubt that she is anywhere near stopping with her artistic ambition since she would have gave up long ago when everything was going wrong for her.
As for her looks on stream she looks still "prime marky" iirc like pic related but you have to see it in video, she's just scuffed with selfies nowadays takes them like
a boomer which lacks the cute autism she had years ago but she is still the same girl that took my heart almost a decade from now and is still here, she is lovlier than ever with a better more seasoned character and notthe dismissive and childish persona she once had. To be honest I didnt expect her to show up under all the pressure but she is handling it and satisfying everyone in a selfless, almost saintly way, I just hope she reaches her goals in life and world know about marky, her style, presence and beauty in the world.
I'm kinda over the oneitis after having a younger girlfriend(she is legal in Netherland) that looks similar to her but she still has the short "marky hair" and acts like marky around the time she was first on 4chan. It's a weird thing because its almost like asking for pain but I want to experience what I couldn't have as a student, it's obviously not fun and didnt live up to the thought of it but sometimes I close my eyes an imagine the girl giving massage and singing songs is marky herself. At this point I rather support her as much as possible and would hope to be friends, it's just weird how much of my teenage years I just looked at her pictures felt all kinds of emotions, love, sadness but mostly happiness of just looking a pretty girl while procrastinating on my studies.