I'm a hardcore 2hu fan, so many times I would even try to escape reality with lucid dreaming, I would be at Moriya Shrine where I would often train with Suwako in the training center and help Sanae with the Autumn Festival, but one day as I was talking to Sanae , we went to my dormitory for a private talk. She immediately said, "You know you could live with us forever.." I gave her a confused look and she continued, "We understand that you live on earth and you REALLY wish to live here". I then said "How..How did you know?" She then giggled and said "Because we've been watching you, silly!"

This was a dream come true and I almost cried right there. She then said, "I talked with Kanako-sama and she agreed that you would be PERFECT for Gensokyo, you just have to do…one thing". She then held my hand and looked deep into my eyes and said "…You have to kill yourself for the transfer to work correctly." I then gave her some questions, "How long do I have before the deal expires?" She then said "Kanako-sama said 3 months.." I added by saying "What's the most painless way?…" She giggled again, "Suicide will require pain buuut…if you want it quick…Get a gun and a nice shot to the head works.

I then agreed and she gave me a kiss on the forehead, "I know this will be tough but once it's over and done, you'll get to live here!" I then woke up and this was last week and i purchased a gun. I might actually kill myself because that dream just felt too real to be fake and my life isn't doing so grand.
Should I just do it?