>>341051.In my particular case I always go back to it,
and I really need it, in situations
where I find myself suffocated and
without a way out. When all is lost,
my psychological reset button is
bonbi. Just watching your old videos
makes me feel better and if I watch any
of your latest streams and hear your
voice or see your funny faces, I feel
so much happier. She makes me forget
about my problems, and I start to think
more clearly, and find simple solutions
to problems that seemed unsolvable
minutes ago.
2.But bonbi also appears in my thoughts
when I remember her and just think how
much I love her, and that she is not
real, but a parasocial construction,
that being aware of it I cannot and do
not want to break it. It depresses me
and I don't know why. In addition, a
huge void is generated in my being and
the question appears. What would happen
if she stopped posting on social media
and I couldn't hear her voice or see
her on any stream anymore... They're
just random thoughts about bonbi that
only last 10 seconds. But it scares me
more that the feeling I have towards
her is real.