As you know, some days ago (27th Dec), news broke that Denis "WhiteRex" Kapustin, the commander of the Russian Volunteer Corps (RVC), was killed by an FPV drone on the Zaporizhzhia front. The guy was a Russian nationalist, a straight-up NS in aesthetics and ideology, who fought for Ukraine because he hates the Putin regime more. His whole thing was fighting for a "Russia without Putin," and he died attacking his own people. The RVC promised revenge. He's a martyr now, for some.

This event, the 27th, it fucking broke something in my brain. My entire position on this conflict has completely shifted. I was always moderately pro-Ukrainian, you could say. Not a flag-waver, but leaning their way. Now? Now I'm in the godforsaken middle of nowhere.

Look, I have my own views on borders and the best fate for these peoples. The "ideal" Ukraine in my head would surprise most Ukrainians with how big it is, and the "ideal" Russia (or rather, Rus') would piss off every Russian imperialist by denying their entire historical project. Both regimes are alien to me - Zelensky's clown show and Putin's KGB mafia. But here's the cold pill I finally swallowed: there's no point in pitying the people. They might be of my race, but in mindset, they're strangers. Slavs killing Slavs. The only thing worth mourning is the nature being torn up by shells and trenches.

On one hand, the Ukrainian draft-dodgers are cringe. On the other, how do you fight for a people but against their government? It's an impossible, suicidal position. Choosing a side in this whole mess feels pointless. Despising the majority of your own people for their slave mentality is a classic move, straight out of Nietzsche and Evola, and I finally get it.

So here's the end result of my mental shift, catalyzed by WhiteRex’s death: the best possible outcome is for the two regimes to completely gut each other. Let them gnaw each other's throats out. Let both the Kremlin and the Bankova's project bleed to death in the mud. Only that kind of mutual annihilation can clear the ground. Maybe then there's a sliver of a chance, a tiny opening for a future for our race, even if the borders aren't perfect. A reset.

The extra layer of irony is the Western cucks who unironically think Russia is some based anti-globalist bastion. Lol. Lmao. It's state-capitalist multicultural oligarchy with orthodox paint. And Ukraine is just their current zombie proxy, not some bastion of freedom. The only morally consistent position is to troll the "patriots" on both sides. They're all useful idiots in a bigger game.

And yeah, WhiteRex/Nikitin was a shady, problematic figure. A NS. But his death, the sheer symbolism of it - a Russian ultranationalist killed by Russians while fighting for Ukraine - it was the final push. It made me see the whole conflict as a tragic, bloody farce where the only cleansing force is the mutual destruction of the powers that started it. His cause is dead. Let both their causes die. Maybe from the ashes, something else can emerge.

What a time to be alive.