i wish i could go back to daydream about the Agatha2 egirls like I used to do in 2022, one of the best years of my entire life, my ability to daydream and idealize these girls made me feel incredibly good.(One of the happiest moments of my life)
one time, I left my house in the middle of the night, i was walking through dark and empty streets, and i started to think about marky, just the memory of Markyās smile made me smile and i feel something in my stomach and my heart that felt georgous, a beautiful memory of true love,
I donāt want to forget that.
I used to listen to shoegaze back then, imagining that the singersā voices were their voices.
i used to listen to old games soundtracks. (CHRONO TRIGGER - corridors of time, for example)
Now, in 2026, iām no longer an incel. i had a girlfriend and a very close female friend, and despite the intimacy, affection, and warmth, I felt like they were both hiding things from me. They never trusted me; I can tell that they treat me differently from other men.
and i always tried my hardest to understand what is happening, but women arenāt at all what I expected.
My experience with friendly relationships with other men in the real world has turned into a mix of bullying and hostility towards me,
I just donāt want to see them. i hate them, i feel deeply disappointed
GOD, i truly loved every second of 2022. i want to daydream again, not just about these beautiful girls, but also about the fake scenarios i used to create, read mangas, read books, and embrace their universes.
Everything was better before i had to deal with real women in the real world...